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Ch 14 Apes & Dogs

Sitting here now, listening to the soft pitter patter of the rain on the canopy roof, sipping the coconut water, watching the primates interact, I smile, my heart is heavy but I watch the little Gorilla and Orangutang, watch them teeter towards one of their relatives close to each other and I know, this is the right thing to do!

Well maybe I am just a little insane now, who knows but my idea sounds nuts even to me now! Teach the Apes how to forage in the surrounding orchards and grocery stores. Build up a bio mass for heating through the winter so they do not freeze to death, and well hope everything works out and do this in the next 12-14 days then move up north before the fall sets in there. Well here goes nothing, I suppose!

We have all been keeping an eye on each other, the Orangutangs watch the Gorillas, and I watch them, and they watch me and each other, kinda like keystone cops. Since letting all the apes, elephants and everyone else that was left, we have all been sitting around outside watching each other and getting to know the new outside places for ourselves.

It was sink or swim time, if we are going to get along, if they will let me show them were the food is, if they let me work on the enclosures to make them winterized, we all just have to take some time to sit and get used to each other. Luckily they seem used to humans, they must have seen dogs as they just watch the dogs play by themselves or watch the dogs as they watch them. Funny lots of watching going on, as well as foraging.

Since I am sitting here with the laptop working on the journal and looking up the info that is needed for the Jean Pain Method of Bio Heating, the primates seem interested in the sound of the keyboard as I work on the journal entry. Two of the littlest ones keep coming closer to peek at what I am doing, while the mothers keep shifting themselves over to be closer to the little ones and watch me at the same time.

I told the dogs to lay-down and be good, just watch and listen, well Zeldy is the one having the hardest time. She is the youngest of all of them and had a bad time until I got her from the rescue place. She is trying her damnedest, but she just wants to play and romp around. The little apes are moving closer to her now, she is watching them with the same zeal that she would a human baby/kid.. lets go and play already she is squirming and thinking out loud, I swear!

Well she could not hold herself any longer, got up quickly and licked the little apes on the faces and did the lets play dance. They seemed pleased, but the troop is now acting sort of alarmed, just what I was afraid of to be honest. Well Midnight bounded up to Zeldy, licked her face and did a little play thing, and now they are off, running in circles, chasing each others tails and generally looking foolish. The little apes are squealing in delight,and the troop is settling down now, hopefully.

Well here comes the baby Orangutang long arms waving in the air, big smile as the other apes wave their arms at the dogs and him as well. Even the huge Silverback Gorilla is settling down now, and the largest of the Male Orangutangs is sitting still watching everything, pie face turned towards me and the little kids playing.

Rolling some tennis balls towards the ape kids, some get snatched up by Zeldy and the chase is on by Midnight, closely followed by the apes, the dogs are whining and growling in play the ape kids are making weird noses and squealing in delight. Perhaps it was the little Orangutang with the huge eyes who put it all together first and threw the ball at the dogs, who snatched it up and ran back to him, so he figured out what to do first. Then the chase was on everyone running and jumping on four legs and feet, balls flying, barking and squeals all so much fun for the fur people.

Perhaps that was the moment that the two troops and my little band all relaxed together for the first time. It will take time, but it will work I thought. Looking over farther away, I spotted the baby elephant watching with those big ears twitching quickly, trunk up scenting the wind, but with big Momma in the way, protecting and blocking at the same time. Maybe next time we would have that little fellah in here too?

Today is a rest day, a play day a get to know the neighbours day tomorrow back to work, we all need the rest today though. Time to find some sticks and move off a bit to play fetch the stick for a bit, so the doggy pack knows they are loved too!

Zeldy, Calm, Calm I say quietly yet loudly at the same time. On one side of her is the baby orangutan and on the other is one of the baby Gorillas. The are both sort of petting her and holding onto her fur at the same time. Zeldy is very still, she is so good with little kids once she is settled down and calmer. Both the little apes are kinda jabbering away to her and to each other at the same time, it is priceless to watch, and I WOULD love to have a camera right now but I Dare not move in the slightest.

The troops look poised and ready for battle with each other and us if things go badly here. Zeldy licks both of the little apes hands and faces and that sends them lurching away, laughing with arms in the air waving too and fro in their short legged way of walking.

Phew.. I let my breath out even though I was not aware of having kept it in! Everyone is settling down now and going back to foraging again. Damn that was close and glad it is over peacefully now.

Dogs, lets get something to eat now OK! Well Zeldy likes to play but loves to eat, so she comes bounding past Midnight who just can’t resist a little nip at Zeldy, as she flys by. There is no contest Zeldy is the fastest here and makes it back in time to get two treats while Midnight only gets one, for now that is. She deserves another treat as well and will get one as soon as we are back at the Toy Hauler, which is parked about 20 feet away.

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Waking Divergent Journal Ch 13 Family and New Friends

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 13 Family and New Friends !

Now your up to date, off to my Parents house in the Kitchener / Cambridge area which is just 30 minutes away, pick up some memories, then off to create more memories on our own I guess.

Another hour then on the way back to the Primates, Gorillas and Orangutans.

So easy to write, but so much emotion afterwards to experience.

Easy sitting here, sipping on Coconut Water and Iced Tea, we sit in the rain, it is pouring, a massive downpour that caught us all off guard, everyone is soaked through. At my Parents house it was Sunny and Clear, when I got back to the Toronto Zoo, it was sunny and clear for about 30 minutes. Then out of nowhere, the sky turned black as the clouds rolled in so quickly it took our breaths away. Then the Deluge Started (underlined and in bold as it is important)

I think High Pressure Met Low Pressure and they had a tango up there with a full orchastra conducted by Ricky Ricardo! Need to get one of those old time Weather devices, that show, High/Low/Humidity/Temperature and Date and Time. Then learn how to use it, we lost so much easy Technology with the Computer age.

Back to what happened;

When we got here, everyone else that was let was let out, let them forage for themselves for a bit before getting Supper together for the last time. The doggy pack are working together very good now, my new command to them worked like a charm, Stay Close – Guard and they did. Not sure if they think I am guarding them or they are guarding me though, but they stay close and are vigilant. All of the Animals saw us working as a group and if any got close, they were greeted with muzzles showing teeth and very loud growlings, with a shotgun pointed at them, even the Hippo’s got the message.

I have a plan formulated, kinda weird maybe for the Big Primates, but I just gotta give them a better chance at SURVIVAL. The others, Elephants, Rhinos, Hippo’s will just be let to their own devices and they can wander at will.

We are all sitting here, under the Canopy that I put up after the winds died down, there is still a slight drizzle, so the Canopy helps us out. Not too far away, the Orangutans and Gorillas are sitting in two distinct groups though close to each other under the overhang in the open enclosures. They are comfortable with each others company, keeping to their family groups and near each other for mutual protection. Some of the wee ones even come close to the dogs and I, under the watchful eyes of the mothers and the the big leader males of course.

They sit close, grooming and murmuring to each other, I sit here thinking on my Parents house and lack of any other people so far. The dogs have bonded and lay close to each other, Midnight with Crunch and Brownie with Zeldy, always paired now, close and looking in different directions, more primal and more social at the same time.

Me, I sit here with YOU, whoever you will be, someone that I find, someone that finds me, or someone that opens the journal, later! I have you to share my thoughts and feelings with, YOU and anyone who is listening to the Ham Radio broadcasting’s. I have started to write and speak at the same time, the Audio voiced into the microphone, the keys of the laptop echoing the words, putting them to paper. The other Ham and CB, along with the radio, listen for a response, any crackle from the speakers and I pause in my broadcast and writing, sometimes the dogs look a the speakers expectantly as well, but for the most part they busy themselves in other endeavours.

Here I sit, heart broken anew, this is my therapy I suppose writing it all down, then printing it out on the little laser printer to add to the Journal as it grows thicker with more papers. In the past I have been called an emotional refrigerator, a cold person, someone who does not show emotion or if only barely. Well I think that has all changed, all changed for good.

The deluge of water may have rinsed the tears from my face, but it did not touch the shadow of a heart that I have left, that is for sure.

Entering my parents house, as it sat almost virtually the same from the last time I left it. Before I got here , there was hope. Hope that maybe they would be sitting there, smiling and saying what took you so long, it is dinner time and we were waiting for you! Alas no, nobody, no sign, no notes, no nothing.

Zeldy had been bouncing up and down at the door, eager to get in to see Grandma and Grandpa, she raced around searching, questing, sniffing and then barking and whining all at the same time. The other dogs, fired up tore around with her, sniffing as well, scenting the people that had been here, the scent of Zeldy that lingered and god knows what else. Finally Zeldy sat in the middle of the living room, staring at their armchairs, whining a little then layed down staring at the empty chairs and sighed. I think she had been hoping they would be there as well, lets face it she was hoping very hard they were there too. She started bouncing as soon as she realized what street she was on and who lived there.

Even in grief, I knew time was limited, so limited for me as I had to get back here and let the rest go let the last of the mammals go free. Give them a chance at life, family and happiness, a chance that I might never have again.

Trinkets and memories;

That is what I took when I departed, I left a short NOTE and a copy of the journal for them to read, if they returned. On the note I said what I took, how to reach me and my destination for the winter!

TO zoo first
channel on CB and Ham radios for contact
North to the New Liskard Area of Ontario, North away from the Nuclear Reactors if they melt down,
North to the last known location of my Sister, she is up in the north, my buddy is in the New Liskard area, so North is where I am going, for now. North where I always felt at home, felt like I belonged the North that never left me. You may leave the North but it never leaves you. You may leave the Military but it never leaves you.

Memories of other times; Some paintings by my paternal Grandmother a photo that my paternal Grandfather took, some photos of my Dad’s Mother and Father, some photos of my parents and family including my Mothers Parents my Nanny and Pappa, other family as well from the mantel.

Some homemade jams that my mother had made a few years before and the boxed multi layered scene from the Coast of Nova Scotia that I had given to them as a gift. Two of the nice pipes I gave my Dad for the last Father’s day, a hand carved Celtic Cross (by me) that I gave my mother when she was in the hospital. Memories!

Some Memories for the future, memories of a saner time, a time with Friends, Families and People on the street, normal times.

As I closed the door I said goodby then stood there, looking around, thinking. 

Since they are in a cul de sac, I disconnected the gas from their house and from the neighbours on both sides, then loaded the shotgun with 00 buck and slugs, proceeded to shoot the electrical wires from the poles that connected the houses to the Grid. Just in case of an overload and spike. A quick trip down the hill to the neighbours house there, shotgun at the ready, since they are not the nicest of people even at the best of times, did the same to that house. Well the best I can do to see that the house does not burn down, for now!

Come on Doggies, into the Camper Toy, lets go play with some Gorillas now OK., we drove away, I did not look back.

Sitting here now, listening to the soft pitter patter of the rain on the canopy roof, sipping the coconut water, watching the primates interact, I smile, my heart is heavy but I watch the little gorilla and orangutang, watch them teeter towards one of their relatives close to each other and I know, this is the right thing to do!

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Waking Divergent Journal Ch 12 Fires and Gorillas

Pulled up on a Ridge, stopped by the view that overlooks a part of the African Lion Safari, also visible in the distance is part of the 401, part of the 403 south, part of the Toronto Skyline and some of the lands West and North West.

Since the view was sudden and startling, it is quick update time.
My plans are altered by the sudden views and realization that my parents home might not survive too much longer. Since they are not answering, email, phones I have assumed that they are like everyone else, no more!

Reverse order Journal right now;
the view is most startling and if there had been time, perhaps I would have come to the conclusion or pre-thinking of what I am now witness too!

Fires! Fires in the distance in every direction, as far as I can see there are Fires! Some of the woods are ablaze though mostly it is the houses and buildings that burn. Perhaps it was power surges, or things plugged in or lightning strikes, or gas explosions, who knows what it was.

Now my location is only 30 minutes to my parents so a quick run over there, take a look, holler out Hellooooooo, though probably will be hollering in vain! There are some keepsakes and memento’s that should be grabbed now since we are so close. Some old photos, some paintings some trinkets to remember my family by.

Need to write out some long-term planning thoughts and ideas.
– food long-term
– living location for long-term
– travelling
– equipment for long-term
– fuel for long-term
– searching for others that survived? Continuation?
– long-term feasibility of batteries, power, communications, laptops, computers, printers, information, books, magazines, some DVD’s – Training and relaxation, music (NO RAP or Opera.. same bad words in front of nice music)
– Deal with loneliness, lack of someone to talk too
– WEATHER !!!!
– print out info, put it in binders
– transfer Journal to book format
– HEALTH -me – Dogs – other animals??
– EMP – Solar Flares & Nuclear explosions (build a Faraday Cage, large and small! )
– add into list more Propane

– DAY OFF need one or twooooo—- so exhausted! Well tomorrow will be a mostly day off! Then the following day will be a full day off for us. The dogs are tired as well, Brownie needs some bandages again and some more antibiotics, the others are looking worn out and ragged as well.

– —- more, expand list, create new chapter just for list?? put into spreadsheet???
– tomorrow, think on this stuff tomorrow, today is not yet over.

Since letting out animals and Zoo visits are in the last stages of work, there has just been too much time gone by now so survival rates will be none existent. The only sidetracks for animals now will be to open up fields and pastures where I see that some animals are still standing and grazing as I drive by.

We left the African Lion Safari Park just a few minutes ago, climbed the ridge in the Viking with the Toy Hauler and beheld the spectacle of what I can only describe as a ring of fire. The breeze is a gentle one coming in from the Northwest and the least amount of fires in that direction, so that is probably why the air is not filled with smoke.

GET a mask!! Get a mask or I will on the ground not breathing be, alone. There will be choking from the fumes as well as the smoke and my newly formed Asthma will take over in a bad way. The Toy Hauler Camper is equipped with an air conditioner that runs on propane, 12 v and 110 v, so maybe the dogs can stay in there if the smoke is too much, I will be wearing a mask and do what needs doing.
add into list more Propane

Familiarity breed speed, this time the release of all the animals, reptiles, birds and Bugs (some great big spiders and such!!!!) was much faster. Cutting corners, knowing the time is limited as well as needing to be back to feed the Primates made me speed through the whole process.

Things of note:
Baboons are like out of control teenagers! Hooligans, only the flashes of the shotgun blasts and the flash bangs keep them back. Even the dogs retreated very close to me as the are so outnumbered by that band of hooligans. Luckily for the Viking, I just used one of the beat up African Lion Safari pickup trucks to zip around in. Did this for a few reasons and one of them was remembering the incident with the Rhino back at the Toronto Zoo!

Rhinos here seem more used to being moved around and put into a direction that the handlers wanted I guess, as the truck survived, even though one of the huge black Rhinos spun around and dinged up the rear tailgate area some more, then it shuffled off, looking pleased.

Last thing on the list was open up the Elephant areas. After opening up the Elephant coral so that they could move around the park, I was composing a new message from the tape recorder that has been feeding into the CB and Ham radios. As I played back the message that was recorded at the Toronto Zoo, the Elephants all started trumpeting, shuffling and charged about 10ft closer to me.

Well, I am not afraid to tell you that we all pooped a little at that, me the dogs all of us jumped back in startlement and wonder! One minute the Elephant Herd was peaceful and grazing quietly, moving slowly along their path to the water, stopping at the odd tree for some fresh leaves, the next minute, wow! All the elephants trumpeted, formed an aggressive line moving towards us, the babies in the rear with another elephant. All ears turned towards us, heads lowered a bit, trunks swinging too and fro, lifting sod, rocks, sticks anything close and questing in our direction. Tons of angry or startled massive mammals!

What the heck just happened? Looking behind I only saw the dogs, heads lowered, eyes wide, teeth bared and growling but not moving, nothing else in view. What triggered that display of aggression or unrest? Was it the tape recordings? There was nothing else in my hand, I was listening too…. a message. Think, what else was on the recording animal sounds in the background and possibly Elephants calling to each other?

So I dared, I lifted the tape recorder up, showed it to the elephants, moved it around, took my other hand and lifted one finger up to press play. At first the only sound I heard was my voice with the recorded message, then animals in the background and Elephant Calls!!! I moved the recorder higher, moving it to my right, not moving fast just moving cautiously, all eyes on me now, Dogs and Elephants. I turned off the recorder, as the elephants reacted, though not as aggressively as a moment ago. Breath, let out a long ragged breath that I did not even know I was holding in. This herd of about 12 would trample us to nothings in the dirt if they wanted too.

Slowly I moved to a close picnic table, put the recorder on it and backed up to the pickup and dogs. The large Matriarch moved forward towards the picnic table along with 3 or 4 of the others, we retreated to the pickup, I ordered the dogs into the back of the truck bed. All of them jumped up, no complaints or hesitations, they were a little weirded out as well I think.

She lifted her trunk and eyes, searching in the distance, searching, question, eyes, kept going back to the little recorder, it was not turned on, but she was intent on a closer investigation for sure.

That was when I decided our time was done and headed back out the open gates to our moving home, the Viking and the Toy Hauler Camper, maybe I should just call the Camper,, The Toy! Not sure what happened to the tape recorder and well there are plenty around now to be picked up, but not that one!

Now your up to date, off to my Parents house in the Kitchener / Cambridge area which is just 30 minutes away, pick up some memories, then off to create more memories on our own I guess.

Another hour then on the way back to the Primates, Gorillas and Orangutans.

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Waking Divergent Journal Ch 11 Road to Africa

Quick update;
Left the 401 North on the DVP, West on the 407, back to the 401 as it intersects with the 407 before it heads off towards Hamilton.

Time is: O my Lord it is late and I am exhausted.
Location African Lion Safari
Situation, computer and Cell Phone batteries nearly dead as they became unplugged today during the exertions.

The journey was uneventful right up to about 2 miles from the Zoo that is called “African Lion Safari” Battery is at 40% so enough time for a very quick update, then I will sleep, this will recharge and both will be back at it tomorrow. Me to do the deeds and the Laptop to record what I can remember during the day and at the end of the day. Therapy as I have found my mind slipping somewhat, from the illness and from the madness that I see lurking in the corners of my mind as my little human brain tries to reason this out and make since out of the Divergent Reality that I find myself in now. This Journal will be my gauge and pathway moving on.

About 2 miles out there is a small intersection insignificant really but important as the gas station there looks to have blown up! Who knows what kind of spark set it off or maybe a car or some electrical spike was the trigger?

The explosion took out the power lines in 2 directions and one was towards the African Lion Safari. Some of the lines where still sparking on a couple of poles that were laying across the street, blocking my access onwards.

Of the many options I thought of, it dawned on me just to do the simplest option; since going around would be too time consuming, trying to drive around the poles themselves was not possible, my answer was simple. I used the chainsaw, cut the poles themselves, hooked on the winch and moved them 3/4s of the way across the roadway allowing easy passage through.

I had let the dogs out for a bit of a stretch and play time while I grabbed the chainsaw, winch and moved the poles. No problems easy task all went well. All went well that is until the dogs stopped playing almost at once, Zeldy was the first to stop lower her head and start growling, taking up that ready stance that indicates a threat of some kind was close.

Within a moment all the dogs where growling, stances ready to spring, heads lowered swinging left and right noses scenting the air searching for the target or targets. I am sure they knew what the threat was though having a somewhat stuffy nose, I merely took up a combat stance, eased the safety strap on my K-bar and the safety strap on the .357 Magnum Ruger Blackhawk in its holster.

Now from a combat point of view, I would have preferences for an auto loader, but dealing with animals and large predators, the simplicity and accuracy of the revolvers were preferential while on the road. In the Zoo itself, I slip on a shoulder holster with one the auto loaders, preferably the .45cal or the 10mm.

Anyways I digress, The attack was so fast we barely had time to react, barely had time to survive. Lions might be king of the Jungle or Savannas, the Tiger though is Emperor of Hit and Run tactics or Guerrilla Warfare! Even sitting here now, looking back on what happened even the dogs did not know what direction the Tiger attacked from, with lightning speed, gnashing teeth and slashing claws.

The only thing I saw was blurred stripes as it moved past me, knocking me so that I would fall down. My combat stance and many hours of practise years ago on the ranges and drills repeated over and over in the military though, had me spinning left, spinning in a full 360 deg circle, pulling my revolver with my right hand and my combat knife with my left.

Dropping to my right knee, my left hand swung upwards matching the swing of my right hand with the revolver. My combat stance to steady the revolver, left hand supporting the revolver, blade facing to my left in the reverse grip fighting position.

Quickly bring up the revolver sights, aligning on the orange and black striped primal attacker. The attacker who was past me, swiping into MY Dogs, boom and flash of light, cordite smoke blowing sideways from the cylinder, thumb moving back up to the hammer, pulling down again. Trigger finger this time gentler, breathing ragged, breath blowing out, steady the hands again, gently make it count. Aim through the sights, pulling the target closer to me, back of the massive head, just below the left ear, Boom!

Blood splattering, Tiger head lurching, forward and downwards, body lowering, thumb back up the hammer, breathing more ragged, re-shoot,

Boom, Tiger’s head swinging left now, eye looking at me, searching for me, blood spattering before the ear now, close enough I see the hole from 25ft, so close! Tiger dropping, body momentum still moving forward, dogs now fully engaged, attacking, snarling, jaws snapping, teeth tearing into the throat and shoulders now.

I rose, slowly handgun still aimed at the head, not wanting to fire again yet as there were dog bodies all over the enemy, the primal hunter, down now, still breathing and both of us now ragged breathing, blowing hard, trying to gain the upper hand. Dogs move, I bellow, Zeldy and Browny still in the way, MOVE I bellow, The Rotty’s, moved around and to the back, Browny staggering farther left, Zeldy still in the way, MOVE again I bellow, she finally looks at me, frothing at the mouth, blood spilling out, white foam, but she moved.

Now only 5 ft away, Boom again, into the head. Down, never to rise again, what a huge beast, massive 7 ft long body, wow. From now on .44 magnum for me on the hip and 10mm in the shoulder holster full time.

Next came the first aid to Brownie, 4 large slashes down the side of his body, deep gashes which I cleaned out with Hydrogen Peroxide, applied polysporin, some larger bandages and wrapped dressing all the war around, 3 times in order to keep the dressings in place. Need to check that before going to bed. Need to find Anti-biotics soon and apply some directly as well as in the food for a while. Dogs are hearty but they do need helping out as well.

As you surmised dear future reader, the power was out at the African Lion Safari, most of the big predators were gone, some still hanging around looking for an easy meal. Chased them off with some shotgun blasts, some air horns and a Flashbang just for good luck.

Time to throw some feed down for the other animals and let the birds out and free them. In the morning, animal release for the others, including the Rhino’s, Hippo’s and Elephants.

Damn gotta keep chasing the Baboons off as well, they are pesky and fearless!

That’s all for tonight. Another update tomorrow, battery at 10% now, time to go to bed and it can start recharging.

Come on dogs it is almost midnight, bedtime! The female Rotty lifts her head and looks at me. I say again, come on dogs it is almost midnight, she wines a big now looking at me.

Midnight I say, She is wagging her little stump of a tail, and comes right over to me for a hug and a rub..

Well, Midnight is your name, she seems happy now, done last name;
Zeldy, Browny, Crunch and Midnight !

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Waking Divergent Journal Ch 10 Zoo Run Day

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 10 Zoo Run Day !

Sitting here, checking email and trying to make up a message to let others know that I am here though the question is, are they out there? Turn on the Radios, all of them, ouch so loud, so loud. This morning I slept in, the dogs slept in, none of us even heard the alarm. None of us heard the Big Cat either, there are footprints around the Camper Trailer and the Viking! These prints are very large, though from the look of the prints, all the same so I think only one Big Cat and if I have to guess, Tiger!

Damn, so soon not even a breather. This might be another reason that I am sitting here, body is in pain, but it is my head, there is nothing but mind shattering white pain lacing through my skull from the back to the front. Massive Migraine, migraine like I have not had in years, not since I stopped eating Peanuts and Peanut butter, see I have a weird intolerance to it so it gives me migraines so I eat it and it says, Hey thanks buddy here is a souvenir!

Tylenol, Tylenol is my friend this morning although I wish it would get here sooner. I know better than to take too much Tylenol, but this morning I gobbled down Two of the Tylenol Migraine and One of the 8 hr Arthritis pills. Yes stupid, but I need to move soon, the time is already 8:30 a full 2 1/2 hrs late setting off. So thanks to the powers that be, spell check on the old laptop, is my second friend.

Realistically I should put a moist towel across my eyes and lay back down for a 2 hr nap, drink water that would cure the Migraine most times, but that would be in a normal world, this is anything but!


Well folks, from now on each Day or Journal entry will be a chapter. Since I am not even sure what day it is in reality, I am now calling them Chapters with a heading!

So today is Zoo Run Day, when it was operating normally they would have called it Zoo Fun Day ME thinks. The variation today is that the Animals will be walking around the park and the Two Legs and Dogs will be behind bars as much as possible.

Touche for the animals Touche

Later, we are going to the African Lion Safari and let everyone out there who is left alive, then come back for the Big Primates here.

I have a plan!
Will this plan work or not is another story, will I be able to get to the African Lion Safari and back again before nightfall, is another story. Plans Plans Plans and a blinding migraine, ya is me… Writing this out though in the journal is part of the plan to keep me focused and on the path.

spending time with elephants and Gorillas, beforehand then off to the African Lion Safari to let them out, then back here.

We Let all the little animals go today,
for the reptiles, lizards, Turtles, Beavers, Marmosets and others, the best I am able to come up with was, put ramps of 2x4s and long sticks down into their pens and enclosure and hope for the best. Either they climb out to the food and freedom or they do not. This will be out of my hands and into the hands of a Greater Power than me. Run Run lots to do.

Is it time for more Tylenol yet, I know part of the problem is me, not drinking enough water plus that fact that only a few days and for months beforehand sickness was my constant companion. My body is weak compared to what it was before there has been no down time, no get well time just move move move, just like being back in Basic Infantry Training! Hhmmpphhhffffff

This place is so big, even with the wheelbarrow, the quad and the Dog Squad keeping an eye out, the time is flying by way too quickly.

Time is now; Noon ! 1200 hrs..
Nuts, how will this work out.

Modify the plans, so feed the Primates, the Elephants, themselves along with the Rhino and Hippos plus the other large animals, then leave with the Viking and the Camper (I like that word more than trailer) Go to the African Lion Safari, feed, let large Big Cats and Wolves out there, stay overnight, finish letting out then come back here.
Do it all over again !

Damn is there nobody else out there, am I truly alone?
Plans.. ya for me, ya for us
Feeling sorry for yourself yet, maybe but I can still save a few more animals before I have a chance to grieve for me.

Modify; So Bears, Elephants, Rhinos, Hippos and the other herd animals go out now, I will not be able to feed them all tomorrow anyways. Run Run
How to do this, Bears out past the walls chase them with the quad and dogs. Herbivores inside the walls, there are lots of trees, flowers, grassy areas inside and the walls are helping to keep out the Hyenas and those guys. Run Run

So-far so good, only had the Polar Bears try to attack me, then the Hippos and the Big Black Rhino while trying to herd them into their outdoor pens. They put some dents in the Toronto Zoo vehicle that I was lucky enough to use to help herd them out instead of the quad since I know how much damage they can do. Well luckily for me that is, the quad would have been pancaked, as it is this F350 quad cab is well pretty much useless thanks to all the fun that was had by all, except ME ! Run Run, but not run into the truck I am using!

Damn, lucky I did not start out with heart problems! Maybe I should stop by a Pharmacy and check my pulse in one of those nifty machines I always see there, mine might be a little on the high side!

Time: 1430 hrs
Location: inside the Cafeteria, the Viking outside getting ready to leave for the night, off to Zoo number 4 ..
welcome to Canada’s Wild Kingdom show, kinda like that old Mutual of Omaha show I watched as a kid, only newly HOMEGROWN Fun for all.

“Hey you big Mastiff get out of the Muffins and Brownies,” I call out loudly to him. Surprising he turns and looks at me, so what words did I Just say?
Muffin … no response
hey you … no response
Brownies .. that got it!

“So, either you like Brownies, or that was close to your name, guess what buddy.. your New name is Brownie ! ” Well he seems to like Brownie, his tail is wagging very hard, knocking things off the tables, so lets toss a brownie, to Brownie. “awww.. I crack ME up” I laugh out loud. The dogs look confused, but happy and Zeldy is rubbing and pushing up against me now tail wagging and thumping me hard, like normal. Her tail is at the wrong height for me being a Male ! !! ouch..

3 names down, 1 to go! Not bad at all. I look at the Big Rotti female she looks back at me and cocks her head to the side, your next I say. She wags her little stump of a tail off, but still no name, not yet.

OK doggies, Zeldy, Crunch, Brownie, black female rotti, into the Toy Camper with you, there is still lots of work to do! Hey another name, I am on a roll now, Toy Camper with the Viking.. He He He..
Now off down the highway, let the Viking Run Run, down the road only about 10 Km to the 401.
Run Run, now along the 401, excellent timing..

damnation !

Slowing down now, stopping stopping, at the junction of the 401 under the DVP, the Don Valley Parking lot, and well it looks it too! Stopped now on the top, looking down the length of the 401 from the DVP to out past Younge St. Cars, blocked, totally grid locked, blocked !

Crappers in Wrappers, Ok were am I getting these weird words from, I do not want to swear so much like I did before, but some of these alternative words are weird, though some are weirdly funny as well. I just crack me up!
Plan, changing the plan
How about up the DVP it looks passable, from what I can see,
so North on the DVP up to the 407, then the 407 over the top to the west, it drops down and meets the 401 again as well as 402/407 combination.

OK, that is the new plan, the 407 being a toll highway is so much faster normally with so few vehicles using it because of the high costs involved in doing so. Well they can send the bill to, kissmybutinsky@hotmail.com … LOL.. ya. Yuppers I crack me up!

Well, making a U-turn in the middle of one of North Americas busiest highways is not normally feasible or safe, today seems to be an exception though. LOL..

Thinking to myself now, is it because I am so tired, or is the stress and weirdness coupled with the lack of others finally getting to me? Need to re-assess things in a few days. Lets keep it together now, for the Dogs and the Primates then worry about my sanity.

Sanity, so what is troubling me?
Thinking Thinking,,, pay attention to the roads, still many cars sitting here and there I can get through, but barely in a few spots and I do not want to scratch the paint or have any damage to the Viking or Toy Camper, or me!

407, up the wrong ramp as the on ramp is blocked with a collision, the other ramp is free and clear though.
Looks light from here on out, as far as i am able to see with the bend up ahead.

Sanity, am I locked inside my own mind, with insanity?
Is this real, I think so unfortunately?
Where are all the people?
Illness that swept through in 24hrs?
Where did all the bodies go then?
Is this an alternate Earth?
If so how?
Time shift for only ME? Time shift with dogs and animals?
Weird military experiments that went awry?

Actually that last one, why is that setting my already bruised head, bouncing and tingling, what can I remember, more importantly though, what can I not remember or do not know?
Military Experiments, Scientific Experiments

Stop the Vehicle, the Viking idles away fairly quietly, what is the cell reception here? OK 5 bars for Fido/Rogers, let’s log onto the internet, lets see what the mainstream, lamestream media has to say or missed. Not much …
What other programs to check out?

  • Coast to Coast AM with George Noary
  • Prison Planet and Infowarrior channels with Alex Jones
  • Jack Spirko’s channel The Survival Podcast
  • The two biggest Survivalist blogs, MD Creekmore at thesurvivalistblog.net and James Wesley the SurvivalBlog.com
  • YouTube search
  • Prepper and Survival Networks

Similarities in the searches and comments..

– HAARP upgrades and ramps up testing

The Large Hadron Collider | CERN to participate in remote test with the remote Alaskan HAARP Project, Haarp Project Bluebeam 2 to do JOINT test with The Large Hadron Collider in Cern.

O MY GODs, what did they do! What did they do that made THIS HAPPEN !
Idiot scientists with half-baked schemes and understandings of the Earth and the World around us.. crap..

… print this out, save this for later so that I can get my head around what they did.

Joint effort to re-create big bang on Earth by creating code named Bluebeam 2 and Bluebeam 3, to coordinate experimental jointly timed projects, mission objective to Scientifically created Magic !

Holy Poopers ! Well that did not turn out very well now did it !!!

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Back to the road, I am leaving the laptop on and facing me, something I never do, correction, something I never did in the past, due to safety and well getting a fine from some Patrol Cop. Right now I need to see these images in my head, looking at it occasionally while driving might actually steady my mind a bit, for it is spinning out of control right now!

Need a focus right now as I drive, focus on the problem, focus on the drive, focus on the task then focus on ME as well as the Dogs and the Future!

This really is a Zoo Run day isn’t it, for so many different reasons. Let’s speed up a bit and gain some of the ground back that I lost sitting there surfing for answers.


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Waking Divergent Journal Day 9 part C

The Toronto Zoo
Time 1800hrs

Need to find out or think of a different way to mark the chapters/days/recordings and such than to call them Days, since I am not even sure that this is Day 9 as it could easily be Day 10-12 anyways. The first sickness period was just a strange blur. Need to find out or make up names for my new little doggy pack.

There are lots of dead animals here though, 9 or 10 days no food or water, what a waste. What a shame. The Bowmanville Zoo and the Big Cat World had streams running through most of the pens with the water flowing for the animals to drink. Sadly here it looks like only a few of the enclosures have running water, so there are more issues to deal with.

Stopping at every farm along the drive in the area and the Bowmanville Zoo, to let the animals out was quite time-consuming as well, though necessary I feel. Wouldn’t you dear future reader, would you not have stopped and let out more animals? The stop for myself and the dogs was only a matter or an Hour and a half, picking up the trailer, outfitting it and shopping, though I am sad now even for that time as I wish we had gotten here sooner, so sad.

Damn this place is huge! Luckily I have the Quad to zip around in. The dogs run behind to keep up and then divert here and there to check out something along the way, noses going so hard they might blow up with so many new scents here.

Locating the feeder animals along with some large beef sides and hanks, grabbed a few of the dead non feeders as well, and tossed them into the Big Cats pens. Made sure the water was flowing or at least used the water hoses to fill the water troughs enough to slacken their thirsts. Must be quick and move along as fast as I can, even rushing around like I am the large cats as so majestic, so primal, so dangerous.


The primates enclosures were the hardest to deal with. A full 1/4 are dead or dying. I put together every bit of food from the pen kitchens near them, that I could find. Animal kitchens as well as the human lunch rooms and divided it into two piles. Today’s and tomorrows. I am feeding them through the bars today, no finesse at all. Letting them roam into the larger pen areas, cage areas, made sure as many of the openings into the sleeping and play areas were open as well. Will let them wander in an out as they have a want too, day or night.

Luckily almost all these areas have hoses ready and close so filling water troughs and bowls through the bars and cages is relatively easy, though a bit messy. Need to locate a map of the working structure to help me get around inside and outside using the workers areas, that will speed up this task of feeding, watering and releasing.

Well this 48 yr old ex soldier, security officer, truck driver and construction worker, can cry. I worked for hours with tears rolling down my face, after a while I forgot to brush off my cheeks and stopped noticing the wetness on my cheeks, I guess. Had to change the shirt and jacket before starting this journal entry it was quite dirty from everything today, need a shower soon, soon. No time, no time just yet.

Primates are so like us, humans are so stupid and cruel. The mothers and fathers are standing or sitting holding dead babies, or standing in front of dead members of their troops protecting their dead as I came near them, charging forward to scare me off. Tell me again, they do not have feelings, they do not love, they do not feel or have emotions, tell me again why we are so much higher than the mere apes along with the other Animals. Tell me again and you will be picking your teeth out of your mouth for days.

When a mother Chimp or Gorilla or Orangutan is holding her dead or dying babies, making a fist at me to stay away, or throwing sticks at the barrier so I will not come in to hurt them, tell me again, how much beneath us they are, tell me again, why God loves US so much over them, why we are Human and they are mere animals! I dare you, tell me.

Every one of the other exotic animal cages had some dead and dying animals in them, most are weak and disoriented from lack of food and water, I did what I could. Almost all the mothers and the fathers, stood their ground or put themselves between me and their young to protect them, even if it meant they thought they would die themselves.

Angry, sad, lonely I am all that and more. What a waste. I do what I can. Did what I could, alone by myself for the Dogs are just a hindrance in this task.

Today’s and tomorrows food is all I can worry about right now. Need to find some of the hidden kitchens, receiving area and food prep areas later. Thank the Lord or Lords above for the wheelbarrows I found near the maintenance shed. Loaded it up with food, go and toss into the cages, pens and enclosures, return and do it all again with other cages and pens. No time for finesse or trays or even kind words. I just state loudly, “here you go folks, eat, chow down, I will be back later, off to the next group to help them out”. I doubt they will understand most of the words, I do hope they will understand the meaning and tone, get used to me.

Damn allergies, I need to blow my nose again.
All of the predators got food, rabbits, chickens, some other birds, some of the dead animals from the other pens and exhibits.
The rabbits, and chickens and such, sorry to say, were let out into the big pens it was a feeding frenzy, every predator for themselves. It is the way of the world, at least it was quick, O so very quick.

The other ones that are left alive, all the other animals, the exotics and domestics alike, it is their last meal from me, hopefully they enjoy it. Tomorrow they will be released.

Tomorrow is tomorrow, today is today the predators get food first, then after a few hours, I let them out into the country side, hoping to chase them away as far as I can with the stung grenades, shotgun blasts and with the air horn I picked up from the sporting goods section at WalMart, which was close to the Trailer Sales place. Here the Dogs did their part, growling, barking and lunging to give added incentive for the cats to run. With Four large dogs going crazy barking and One two legs throwing thunder sticks and making loud booms, none stayed to test themselves, yet.

Details; released predators in bunches, fastest first, the ones I think will run the fastest and farthest first, like the Wolves. Then the Cheetahs, then some of the other small cats like the Lynx, Bobcats and Cougars. Funny when you’re looking at Massive Tigers and Lions, that Cougars you consider small. Small that is until you realize they are the same size as the mastiff and O so much more powerful killers. Hyenas are the hardest to figure out though, they even look like they are strolling when they are running, funny animals. Such strangeness in them from their weird face expressions to their calling one another or venting their rage at us.

Boom … Boom … tossing the flash bangs I found to get the predators to run, run fast, hard and long.
Bang, bang sound of the shotgun reverberates off the walls and trees into the night, being fired right after the flash bangs, brrroooooommmmm went the sound of the air horn, get them going to get them gone, long gone. Hopefully! There goes the last of them, the Lion Pride, they move fast at first, then slowed to look back, now moving slowly off in a group, tails twitching into the darkness.

I let my breath out, the dogs exhale loudly as well. Did we hold our breaths on purpose, was this the primal part of the brain taking over for the fight or flight reflex? Wow, I am moving the Viking and the Trailer inside, inside one of the large enclosures tonight and for as long as we are here.

Be still my beating Heart, has a whole-nother meaning now!

Wondering, Will they link up with others of their kind from the Bowmanville Zoo and the Big Cat World, it is only about 30 ish Miles so about 50 kilometres away?

The other exotics, I am giving as much chance as I can, they can get let out tomorrow when the Big Cats as well as the other Big Predators are far away, hopefully. Need to set off some more flash bangs and blare the horn around the park first before letting the rest out, gotta remember this. I am doing as best as I can!

Recently, have been keeping the laptop on standby, it does not take much life from the 12v battery in the Viking when in sleep mode. So when I have a spare moment or two during the day and need a breather, off to write in this Journal so i do not forget major bits of info and moments. Keeping the laptop on standby, lets you bypass that annoying Windows start-up stuff and time lag.

Finally remembered to check email and the websites, don’t think I have done that for a couple of days now. Still the same, no answers, no Facebook updates, except for mine. The internet and the phone service seems, well slower than it was beforehand!

Let the Emergency services scanner, CB, Ham Radio, scan through themselves to see if I can hear any conversations or broadcasting that was not there before, silence!

Damn, just thought of this, I should be broadcasting a message myself on the CB, Ham Radios and Emergency Services radios for others to listen too! Not that hard, just tape a message on one of those little digital recording machines, or use one of the features of Windows recording studios to do this, damn fuzzy brain and too much to do. Well in a day or so, when there is more time, fewer animals.

Tonight, this is all that I can do to write Shutting down the Laptop and the Communications equipment for the night giving them a rest too. So tired, we all are big yawns.

In a few minutes, I am going to go for a walkabout with my Night time drink of Krakus the yummy coffee alternative and watch the Large Primates and Rhino, Hippos, and Elephants for a bit. Let them get used to the dogs and me, let them scent us now in quiet.

We are all so wound up, exhausted doubtfully sleep will come right away anyways. Hopefully soon after our little stroll, sleep will come easier. Let us unwind a bit and tomorrow will be a new day of animal adventures, doggy pack adventures, this Old Sad Man adventures!

Hey you big black Rotti male, stop crunching on that bone and let’s go!
Crunch, Crunch..
Hey you Crunch…”,I shout out, the big rotti male lifted his head and looked at me. “Well now fella, your name is Crunch, Crunch come here!” and to my surprise, he did.

“Well One down and two more names to come, tomorrow Crunch!” Nice, I think as we walk towards the Viking and the Trailer, nice.

Time 2330hrs
Toronto Zoo

My new Divergent Life. Like my Buddy from South Africa used to say,
“Today was a long week !”

ps. need two dog names, will work on that tomorrow !

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Day 9 part B Waking Divergent

Day 9 part B

squeeze twice – boom boom

down, its down but still moving, snarling, blood on its neck, big black rotty and huge brown mastiff hitting it together, hitting its side,
just as must
steady, aim, squeeze again, at the head – boom finally not moving forward, dogs have it now, snarling, snapping, black rotty has its throat now, the bigger brown mastiff pushing down, biting its neck from above. Zeldy hitting it from the other side, grabbing its neck as well.

Damn that is one big dead Cat. Well even with 4 dogs, 3 bullet holes, that was my warning from up above. Finally got the dogs off, sitting although the worst one to get under control is Zeldy, though that is because she was abused as a pup and still has issues!

Blood lust, thought the dogs still listen, what a great sign that is.

wow.. what can I say.. wow.. did the last bullet do the trick, would the dogs have gotten their in time if I was not wearing the shoulder holstered 10mm? Time to put the utility belt on again as well. More ammo, mini mag light, multi tool and that .44cal in there for now or the .357? Choices again.

Lets get some good Doggy Treats.. Bacon strips,,, still breathing heavy, still wound up tight. Still looking around as are the dogs, will there be another attacking cat or wolf or moose? Need to be more vigilant from now on, there is nobody else here to patch me up at all. On the positive side, all the dogs ran to my rescue, the Baboons are much farther back and are now not coming close to bother me or the dogs now, they are keeping their distance, for now. Shake it off, shake it off and move along folks, nothing to see here folks, nothing to see, move along!

Need better names than just Black Rotty Male, Black Rotty Female and big brownish Mastiff ! Can’t just keep calling them those names, need to come up with some other names, what to call them?


Thank the higher powers that be for all that range time, Combat Shooting club, IPSC and PPC shooting matches, all that time practising in the past, thousands of rounds down range, that is what saved me now. The dogs would have been there a split second late, could I have drawn the K-bar or Kukri in time and stabbed the cat? Well not sure and from now on, combat readiness, knives and handguns on me at all times!

Ok shake it off, back at it too much work to do still to moap or reflect on this. Elephants out now, all the animals I can find are out now, time to go, time to wind down while I drive, not too far though the Reptile store is just a few blocks away, Bowmanville is small town, nice small town but time to leave here, leave it just a bit more wild than it was before!

Bang bang goes the shotgun, boom boom goes the flash bangs, lets make sure these animals have a chance now from the other predators, Right!

Time 1145hrs
Reptile Store
on other side of Bowmanville, quick stop and release. No issues, just a lot of snakes, spiders, iguanas, more spiders, more snakes, salamanders, lizards.. and so on and so on.. quite a lot actually.

Doors opened, food dumped on floors and table tops, fish tanks opened up, not sure what to do with the fish, so sorry just leave them there for the Reptiles to do what they need to do. They will be wandering outside now to forage, they will have to from now on.

One last thing to do now, almost out the door, toss the little bins of crickets and other meal worms out so the critters can feast, back away as a large Tarantula is headed my way. The Tarantula is probably just curious, might be used to getting on peoples hands and arms, but not time now for decisions about that, off we go. Way too much to do still today, too much

Time 1345hrs
Trailer Store

With a quick stop in Oshawa at one of the Trailer manufactures that line the 401 near the old Park Rd exit, I switched up trailers. Since I will be going so far and doing so much we need a different place to stay now.

After a quick search, here is an almost perfect solution to our needs a Toy Hauler! Quad and toys, tools and equipment go into the back with a small camper layout in the front area for me and the Dog Pack, well that is what they think anyways!

This little gem of a trailer is quite nice, has a built in Quiet 3000w Honda Generator, with 12v and 110v plugs, water holding tank, toilet with a shower stall and a kitchen galley for food preparation with a Propane Stove and Fridge, with a 100 gallon propane tank mounted inside / outside for easy filling and safety. Home on the range for us.

The only other modification I did was quite selfish though much needed modification. The DOGS SNORE LOUDLY, so if I want to get any real sleep, guess what the dogs are now sleeping in the Toy Hauler area on a Queen sized mattress. Zeldy does not like being separated from me at night, but with the other dogs for company I think she will do just fine.

Four large dogs quite fill up this queen sized mattress, giving them some much needed luxury as well. Next mattress will be a king sized one perhaps. In the day time I can just lift it up onto one side and secure it using some straps to get it out of the way, or haul it outside for them.

The other nice feature is the pull out canopy on the side with a quick fold out BBQ, boy they thought of almost everything didn’t they. O forgot to mention the Satellite, Flatscreen TV, DVD player, and stereo as well. More like home than even I am used too, but I will struggle along nicely I am sure. The deck on top of the back of the toy hauler will come in so handy for sitting up there as well as having a nice high vantage point, with a chair 😀

The Viking pulls this setup without missing a beat, one of the many nice features of the Diesel engine of the Viking has lots of pulling power and generally better fuel economy pulling trailers and the like than just empty as well. Later on I will decide to pull it all with my 7.3ltr 1988 Ford Club Wagon i350 camperized box truck or leave it behind.

Decisions for another day, another day, more decisions.

Tossed in two chest freezers as well from an Appliance place that was only 200 meters away. Will run the genny or plug them in for now to keep the meat and veggies frozen. Can’t know for sure how long the power will stay running so, prep now for the future, very near future.

Quick stop at the WalMart and Presidents Choice Grocery stores that are over the bridge from the Trailer supply place. Only 1 hr total and we not have food enough for 1 month. Lots of frozen veggies, frozen fruits, frozen meats, canned goods, packaged goods and bulk items. It is amazing how fast it is to shop now even with two carts with nobody to get in your way, nobody to worry about at the cash, nobody at all.

So far the only times I am getting lonely are the times I go to some Human type place, like the store or Hospital or the playgrounds at the Zoos, places meant for people.

I will be starting the Joe Juice Diet now, need to keep up the nutrition and do a real good purge for my health. Since I have watched the documentary; “Fat Sick and Nearly Dead” did some research learned tons, well since then eating much healthier. To add to my Ninja Food Master Prep, at the WalMart I grabbed a wide mouth Juicer so making the juice will be easy and quick. The Ninja Prep is an awesome beast with lots of sharp knives in there, though better suited for making smoothies later on.

DOGS, So smelly today, Dogs you will all travel in the Trailer with the windows down so you all can look outside and it can air out as I drive in the Pickemup .. LOL (say it like a Redneck now) .. alone listening to music, smell zone free, for today anyways! 4 sets of Doggie eyes are looking up at me expectantly, they are in for a bit of a shock, in the trailer they go!

Time to wind down and relax for an hour before getting to the next zoo.

Off to the Toronto Zoo now !

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Day 9 part A Waking Divergent

Waking Divergent Journal Day 9 part A

Time 6am, breakfast for the little Divergent Pack all of us chowed down on some tasty treats of Bacon, with them getting some kibble, parts of raw rabbit and some yummy tasty bacon by hand. Training, showing Alpha pack leader, re-enforcing I am the most Alpha of them all.

Me well I am sitting here having some tasty strips of Bacon, some of my Corn Bread mix that I normally turn into a thick fluffy pancake. This morning I put some Vegan brand fruit blend meal replacement powder in the batch, mixed it up and spread some Coconut Oil Spread on top. Wow all I am able to say is Wow what a taste, tempted to make this everyday though it would get boring after a few weeks.. haha.. few weeks. Tasty tasty.

I am washing this all down with a large cup of Tasters Choice Instant while the kettle comes to a boil again so that I will fill up the Water Floating Boater Thermos that does such an incredible job keeping everything so hot all day and warm the next. Best insulated Thermos I have every had actually.

I have decided, next we go to the Bowmanville Zoo which is along the way to the Toronto Zoo, with a quick stop at any farm along the way.

Need to get a bigger trailer in Oshawa, there are two dealers side by side along the way as well as an RV dealer or two along the 401.

Will also pick up a fridge and two freezers fill them with food from the Grocery Stores in the are that I know, so it take less time to get the foods that I am after.

To save some time later on we will be picking up 15 – 20 bags of Dog food today. Later I will be blending it together and then will be adding in fresh veggies and game at their daily feedings so the dogs will get used to their new diets and they can get the gas out of the way now, while we are outside mostly in the next few days. This so I do not have to smell 4 dogs with gas, as they adjust to new diets!

Well now, I hope it goes as smoothly as yesterday afternoon did at the Big Cat World. Last night we holed up in the handlers area, and opened the outer doors using rope, just like the handlers would do it, the variation though I think were the dogs in the handlers areas with me. I needed to protect them from the other predators, they are not top of the food chain, nor are humans, but together we are much closer. All the big cats were first to go out the doors.

The wolves after quieting down, watched; me, the dogs and sniffed the air. Before I opened the cages, I said two words to the wolves and pointed each time.

Friends, while I pointed to myself and the quite nervous dogs,
Go and I pointed to the door.

I waited for everyone to settle down again, opened the door, shouted and pointed to us FRIENDS, pointed and shouted GO. The pack did go, though the Alpha Male and Female pack leaders stopped just outside the door, looked at me, looked at the dogs, sniffed made eye contact then turned and ran after the rest of the pack. Loud howlings were heard carried on the breeze as they tasted their freedom at last.

Well now, were they saying to me, next time you’re the rabbits or was it a Wolf farewell or just getting the scent down for future reasons. I am not sure at all. Watching them run so very fast into the woods, I was wondering if I should keep doing this or just shoot all the rest of the predators in the future!

Next it was the Hyenas, blasted the shotgun a few times to give them a reason to run out of the park as fast as I could let them go. The other exotics like the littler Primates, such as the Capuchin, Spider Monkeys, Ring-tailed Lemurs and Gibbons (I know this as I am writing down the info right from the enclosure info plaques as they were let go)

Lemures did not want to get out of the enclosures, nor did the Gibbons, so I just left all the enclosures open, wired the doors open, so they can come in and out. Not sure if the big carnivores will come back, but at least they have a place to go to get away if possible.

The Birds were easy, open up their enclosures and cages, say go, walk away. It will be up to them to go or not.

Not sure, not sure, not sure! I would like to think I am doing right, doing the right thing, I am so not sure. Maybe some Norse God is laughing at me now, wondering on the weak human who should have gone into the animal pens with a blade and dispatched them all one by one in glorious acts of Valour like some warrior out of stories of antiquity.

Perhaps some Egyptian, Greek or Roman God or some half demented Demi God is smiling saying the future is Hunting and fear while growing up stronger like the old days. Perhaps my Christian God, the Universe is glad I showed mercy, maybe Gia is happy I am helping to restore the balance of nature to her world. Who knows what will be thrown my way next?

Whatever it is, whatever comes my way, from now on I sleep in a secured area firearms and blades close at hand, with a fire going outside and the dogs safe and secured or we will be dinner, just like the rabbits of that I am pretty sure. Maybe the Big Cats have enough of our scent to think friend / trainer or at least not dinner, before they decide attack or stalk us. Perhaps!

The world just got more primitive and I am at it again releasing more huge predators today.

Quick update on the road;
Location Bowmanville Zoo,
Time 9am:

Beforehand I thought, No large predators, so released the small predators first and let the dogs chase them aways away before releasing the other animals and reptiles. Well that was what I thought would happen anyways.

But.. there is always a But isn’t there!
Gee guess what they have Wolves, Tigers, Lions, etc etc, plus some Elephants, plus, plus, plus other herbivores.

What the hell do I do now?

Opened all the stores of food so they more placid animals can eat right from the grains bins and kitchens, while hopefully learning how to wild forage again, before winter sets in.

Here at the Bowmanville Zoo we seem to have mostly frozen or refrigerated meats for the Cats and Wolves and such. Lets feed them, then shoo them off using flash bangs and shotgun blasts. These flash bangs must be Zoo ordinance, since both places have had a couple of boxes of them sitting in the Trainers offices.

Ok, here we go, the big predators were fed, the fences are down, the grain bins are open, let’s get the predators out of here and then release the other animals.

Bang Bang.. and they are off, dogs barking, Cats running, wolves let out first as they can run the farthest and fastest I think, well it is done now.

Letting everyone out all at once now, all the plant eaters, birds, reptiles, mammals and a few I did not know what they were but no sharp teeth so not predators. It was a little pandemonium, though they do not have to contend with the predators yet. The dogs to their credit, did as told and did not hunt, hurt or attack though they did a bit of chasing anybody around that would run, they did.

Look, some are running back into their pens, some are leaving the grounds, some are just standing there, like the Camels and Llamas, they are just looking at the Dogs, kinda smiling like, O_O..

Well no Damage yet to anybody! Zipping around on the Quad, pulling down some more of the back fences, letting others out of their enclosures, this is not a huge zoo but without the Quad, I would be on a bike or running around like a chicken myself.

Horses, Zebras, Llamas and Camels are all sort of together, refusing to say, yes we are similar and friends, but we are closer together for assistance. The funnies are the Donkeys and Exotic Pigs, running around, everyone and everything, at least I can smile a big smile for that little bit of cheer.

Next to release are the Peacocks, Yaks, something called a Capybara, odd-looking fellows they are! Alpaca, Ostriches, Emus whom are not nice at all, maybe that is why they were together!

Well now this is a surprise, Reindeer, lots of Reindeer, nice fencing, nice grounds and tree cover. Back over to the African Savanna side to let out the, O well missed the Pigmy Goats, my they are small, kinda cute and friendly, nice change.

Well now, whom do I let out first the Elephants who are touching nose to nose with the Dogs, who are going nuts, timid, aggressive, inquisitive, low growls and wines all at the same time looking up up up at the huge Mammals, damn funny stuff right there. Well why they are occupied, lets let out these other, long horn weird African plains animals, well just a little charge at me through the fence, then out wit them.

Wish this quad had a plow, then I could just knock the fences down, would be simpler as well as faster to boot.

Elephants and Dogs, funny combination though they seem to be getting along now, even the female that is off by herself, she seems to be liking the attention of the dogs who run over to her, sniff noses then run back barking playfully to the other Elephants.

Wonder why she is off by herself, the others do not ignore her, nor does she ignore them, but she just stays away, over there, by herself. Hopefully she will be safe and OK after I let out the other Big Predators tomorrow, hopefully she will stand a chance on her own.

Note to self – Reptile Store on other side of Bowmanville, quick stop and release.

What I am thinking, run between, feeding and releasing all 3 at the same time…
Bowmanville, Toronto and African Lion Safari … NO.. that is too much, how about let them all out here today, go to the T.O. zoo then try to get to the African Safari, camp there overnight, go back to T.O.  zoo in morning, release everything else as the big predators should be gone by then?

Note to self – Reptile Store on other side of Bowmanville, quick stop and release. Wait .. I already said that to myself. Well it must be important then.

Ok, time to let the Gibbons and Baboons out now, been waiting as the Baboons can be nasty from what I remember of the African Lion Safari a few years ago…

What was that sound,
breathing, heavy breathing,  is there one of my dogs behind me, though that breathing sounds very different. Something is wrong, I feel … the little hairs on my neck, what was that rustling. What, MOVE..

Dive, roll, something sailed right passed me, O so very close,
roll, there some cover,
Massad Load, pull 10mm from shoulder holster under left arm, with other hand that is now done pushing me up from the ground into a crouching, semi kneeling position,
grab the slide back to the rear of the 10mm, left hand over right hand, double grip, steady breathing, locate.. safety off,

eyes golden yellow staring out back at me, loud growlings, face crunched up in furry, fangs showing, swivel gun left, just a bit more, remember training, slow breathing,
get ready to squeeze trigger, almost there, big cat, animal face so close now, calm, stay Calm almost close enough, cat lunging, snarling almost at gun barrel, squeeze now
steady aim, steady,,, squeeze once – boom …

… to be continued ….

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Day 3 Waking Divergent

Journal Entry Day 3 of Waking (Divergent)

Weird my world and maybe the world around me has changed forever and I go and check email! This was my last email that I sent to a Canadian Prepper a fellow and his family in the North of Ontario that I have met a few times in RL, Real Life.

Hey there long time no chat, you always post great info,
except when it is Tax sales.. LOL

So update, no work, sick still, they do not know what it is, more tests more Doctor and Hospital visits!
how have you been?”

photo of a journal, Waking Divergent a Journal Novella exercise

Waking Divergent a Journal Novella exercise

This is a cover for the Journal, 

Bet that got him thinking as the world went crazy around him! Man I wish it was a better message, wishing him and his family well, asking how he and the family have been facing the coming winter, anything more. Anything more is right.

This is my Journal since my Waking,
waking up into this strange world!

So if anyone ever reads the Journal they will wonder why start it at Day 3. Well simple answer, I still do not remember much on Day’s 1 & 2. Those days are still fuzzy, disoriented, full of nausea and other groggy symptoms.

Day 1 was not pretty at all! Not at all, I woke up or came too sitting in the driver’s seat of my Van. All I remember about that is I woke up fuzzy, tired, and wanting to vomit (apparently again, as outside the door was a pile as well as down the front of me!) It was not pretty at all.

Zeldy my Dog was in the back in her sleeping and travelling area with the same problems, vomit and stuff around her, vomit and stuff close to the door. It looks like we have been here doing this for a while. We both climbed slowly out, did our business outside, she walked stiffly over to her water bowl, the one I put under the corner of a car carrier trailer to catch rain water, she drank deeply from the water.

I picked up my near empty 1 gallon jug of water, which was full the last time I remember and took out the last sip. The last sip, what is going on here!
“Awe man”, I was so tired and sick, I just sat back in the seat, she climbed in the side of the van and that is the last I remember until the rain started hitting me on the face.

Day 2 ish. Not sure what time it is everything is black out, the rain and wind is whipping up and I got to go again. Thankfully though right now, I do not feel like hurling again, right now that is. “Man am I parched with thirst or what.” I must have said this out loud because Zeldy is now looking at me funny, that normally cute way a dog looks at you when it is trying to understand what you are saying. Normally this would be cute, but my head is spinning now so bad, I think that I will fall over, got to look at something more level. Right that’s funny to me, I live at the back of a farm in my Truck Camper and the fellow that is my Landlord friend named Mick also has an Excavation Company and he brings back salvage so he can sell it when the market is high. Well right now all that scrap metal in all those funny shapes and piles are making me look rather funny as I start staggering around, looking for something to steady myself on.

Tonight there is just enough light from the Moon peeking through the night-time storm clouds that I can see not too bad, the night-time sounds of Nature are finally getting into my foggy brain as well. “I need to drink some water” This I say to her directly and she must have understood me this time, because thankfully her head is now at a normal angle and I am holding onto the side of the Van to steady myself.

My brain is still foggy and sick, I climb into my Truck Camper with Zeldy and drink lots of water, drink water for quite a long time actually! How long have I been out of it. Must change my clothes these are disgusting, full of puke and stuff, the stuff we will not get into in much detail but suffice it to say, I need to wash up badly and so does the Dog. There is Wet Dog smell then there is Yuk Dog smell, well thinking on this now, must have been Yuk Human smell too!

All I can manage is a quick spray and wipe down of both her and me, we are both so tired, sick and groggy? What is going on?

So is this Day 2 still or Day 3?

My last day before this sickness was still being sick and doing tests with the Doc and the Specialists. I remember being in my Truck Camper, wheezing again trying to find my breath the dog wheezing as well, so I gave her a puff or two that day/evening as well.

That day the Radio News Channel 680 News in the GTA (Greater Toronto Area) was talking about the mysterious sickness that was hitting the area, it had started the day before in Asia and Eastern Europe as well as the Middle East! Odd I do not remember a similar news report before the Doctor day. I do remember the Doc’s office was full to overflowing and I remember the Doctor saying it was going to be a very short chat as he was so overbooked today and there were so many walk-ins. He also stated they were turning most away and told them to go to Emergency at the nearest hospital. Odd I do not remember there being reports like this before this day, but then again I was sick for about 6 weeks with some mysterious Viral Infection in my Lungs.

Need to take my expensive puffer again, it is hard to breath still or again I have not decided. It is getting slowly, very slowly better, but not so much. Might as well give the Dog another quick dose, she is wheezing and having a hard time breathing, but not as much as I remember her having a hard time. Typical Fur Kid she is, hard to get to take any medications even when she knows it helps her out. Sleep again after puffer time, so tired always so tired.

Day 3 OK up and about lets call this day 3 for lack of better understandings about things.

Weird, everything was so weird today and thinking back on it, it was weird for the last 4 or 5 days. This is supper time, I am writing this on my laptop, did all 3 days right now as I think I will need to keep a Journal entry going as many days as I can do so. All electronics seem to work fine, though the internet is sketchy and my Tethering from my I Phone is sketchy too. Not surprising really since I can find no people!

Did you see that one coming, I sure as Heck Fire did not! Now let’s be honest here, Heck Fire is not what I said, but trying to turn over a new leaf and not swear at all. Well at least not on paper anyways. Today has been so different and so weird and just so, I am looking for words here folks, help me out will yaw. For an ex Bushman, soldier, small business owner, then turned survivalist recently Prepper and Permaculturalist I am at a loss for adequate words, hopefully the more I write the less that will afflict me. Afflict me, weird everything is weird and afflictions seem to be what it is all about. Today’s journal entry will be the chronological order of Weirdness as it happened or as close to as it happened as I am able to understand, reflect on this weirdness and write it down. I am writing in my laptop because I spell like crap, oops lets find a better way to say that, later.

Chronological order of the Day 3 weirdness of Waking.
Getting out of bed as fast as possible to pee, man I am in pain I need to pee so badly! Well so does Zeldy I think she is what woke me up, normally she is hard to wake up early in the morning, I had nicknamed her the Camel. Just try to get her up before 8-9 to go pee, yaw right.

We hop out of the Camper and both run to different spots to pee, thankfully sometimes she stands there and watches me pee, it kind of freaks me out a bit, today she barely made it to her grassy spot at all. Finally I am waking up and finally finished peeing, that felt like it took forever and the pain is lessening in my lower abdomen, so that’s good. It is very quiet, is it Sunday I think to myself, I can hear the sounds of Nature, the sounds of the farm animals on the other side of the barn, chickens and Cows but no human sounds.

This is odd, I really need to clean up the messes we made while being sick. The both of us sick? That is an odd thought as well, my brain is still kinda foggy and disjointed here, so let’s go look around a bit before I get the pleasure of cleaning up I think to myself.

Weird still or again, looks like nobody has been here working on the equipment for days, the drop deck float they were working on near my camper is unfinished and in fact it looks like they just left everything were it was, which is odd in itself. Normally they put things away every night! My buddy Mick, the Landlord and his crew were working on fixing up equipment before the snow flies, everything is just sitting out, tools, air compressor, the box truck and the paint guns with paint cans. Weird.

Zeldy is looking around and growling faintly I can hear the Coyotes in the near distance which is odd as this is daytime, not sure of the time, but the last I normally hear them is at daybreak and I think that was a few hours ago! Weird

As I take a look around from the ridge that the old farm sits on, in the distance I can see that there is no traffic on either of the roads, and can not remember hearing any traffic on the roads since I woke up from what I am now going to call the Waking.

We need some answers to this weirdness, so I go to the Van thinking I will move it up out of the mess and listen to the radio, hear what is on the news. Well the van barely starts, which is weird as the new battery normally fires up the motor right away. I move the Van up the drive so I can keep it running and look at the other side of the farm and down that side of the ridge overlooking the town. I work my Van slowly by the bigger Cube Van which is sitting open, the back door roll up up and everything wet inside and out. Weird again, I think weird.

I pause at the gate, put the Van in park look around and turn the radio on. Emergency broadcast on 680 news, the local rock station, Emergency broadcast, Q107 emergency broadcast, this is so weird.

Damn it Dog.. stop eating grass! The oldies station is playing music though, that’s good right?
OK first thing, lets grab some clean cloths and go to Mick’s house and find out what is going on and ask for a shower, which I have never done before, but then again, I have never seen them leave tools out and nobody come to check on me and Zeldy either, weird.. gotta stop saying and thinking weird!

So I grabbed some clean clothes my shaving and showing kit, some dog food and headed to Mick’s house. Gate open, not locked Weirder, yuppers weirder is better now.
No smoke rising from any of the houses on the road and most are on wood heat. No cars on the side road which is normal it is a quiet street but the main road that is below, is empty! Why is the road empty? The corner lights are flashing red as in all stop 4 way stop, weirder. What day is this I ask out loud, Zeldy sort of grunts and sniffs at the same time, she does not know.

Damn forgot my watch, the time on the radio says it is 11 am, getting going very slowly today am I.

Mick’s yard at his house is full of vehicles like normal but nobody is around, nobody in the shop, nobody in the house! The door is open, he might be my friend and I am friendly with the family but I do not enter their house ever unless there is someone home. The back door is always open, but I have never been past the kitchen table, we normally sit there and chat, sometimes his wife joins us, most times she does not. His briefcase is there, but nobody is home! I am going in, no answer, no answer to my calling out, even though my voice has not fully recovered yet from the weird lung infection sickness, someone should be able to hear me in the house.

Puffer before going upstairs to check, weirdness abounds! Nobody was driving on the street, there were no cars on the street either, now it is a main street and I have on occasion seen no cars or trucks on it, but that was normally only at about 3 am when I was coming back from work, nobody upstairs either. Where is Angel their dog, maybe she is out at the family farm with some of the family, well first off, I am taking a shower in the basement shower!

Well showered, and changed into clean clothes. Looked around again, Dog gets cold shower from the hose, not so nice, but damn she is one smelly Zeldy, ha.. first time I have laughed in a few days, it sounds kind of hollow and weak in the ally between the house and the neighbour’s house.

Left note on kitchen table, propped up on the briefcase so anyone can see it. Left cell phone number on it as well. Down to the corner, south of the house the four corners all have strip malls, grocery stores, pharmacy, a new WalMart in the old Zellers store and no people!

OK, look in the cars, no people! No people in the McDonald’s as well, wonder if the coffee is still on, even stale coffee would be good right now, even cold coffee would be good right now!

Well there is some in the Urn and some not made in one of the coffee makers, set to go but not turned on, so I flipped the switch to on and went to get my Dog! Under the circumstances methinks she is now allowed into McDonald’s at least in the lobby area. So out to the Van, put her on a leash, the last thing I need is her to Find someone and scare the crap out of them by runny up and barking in their face or faces.

Left the Van running, another strange fact, better than saying weird all the time, the fuel is almost on empty, I had filled it two days before the strange sickness overtook me, so what was I doing, how long was I out, and what did I do with the Van, run it to keep warm in my fussiness? The Drivers window and the driver’s side rear window were both open up a bit, good seeing as normally the prevailing winds come from the passenger side, as I normally back my Van into my parking spot. Everything that was on my sleeping bench was piled in the passenger side seat and foot space. Anybody hitching would need to wait about 10 min while I make room for them!

Left another note at McDonald’s saying sorry I made the Urn of fresh coffee, filled two large cups, left money on the counter to pay for them. Man those things are huge! My head is pounding, hopefully the Tylenol Migraine and the Two large MckyDs coffee will sort that out. The note said, “sorry can not find anyone in here or outside, need coffee for my head, left money on counter to pay for them, including enough to cover taxes I hope? Left Cell phone number for Manager to please call and anybody else to call me, anybody else!?”

Looked in most of the shops, went into the new Wal-Mart, there is always someone in there, empty! Everywhere Empty, nobody, nobody in sight at all.
Am I crazy? Am I in some sort of medicine induced coma? Am I in my camper sleeping in some weird dream, or in the Hospital in some weird coma dream? WTF what is going on???

Scanning all radio stations now, all or most either on Emergency Broadcast stay in your home, authorities are working on the problem! Or the station is static, or playing music in some sort of endless loop or someone maybe hooked up their Ipod so the end of the world would have some music until the power went out. Is this some sort of hellish dream, seeing as on one station there is Rap Crap and on another station is Opera, man I hate those sounds, bad words in front of decent to great music!

Am I dead? Is this Hell, is this the Nether World, the transition world? Ouch, Zeldy looked at me funny again, I had just did the pinch thing on my arm and pricked myself with a knife in the finger tip. Well it must be Hell or the Nether World, there is blood! I am not sure if you bleed in a dream, even in a coma dream would there be blood? If there was a coma dream about Zombies I guess there would be blood though. This Waking Dream or Waking to a weird new and strange world there are no Zombies, yet and nobody else yet as well!

Went into Supermarket and got some food, ate from the can, damn my stomach is empty. Grabbed a large bag of Dog food as Zeldy’s food was out as well. “Lets go look some more for people or dogs, or anything!” I said to her quietly.

Hwy 2 in Courtice was like a spread out parking lot, looks like people just stopped their cars in the middle of the road or pulled over to the side. Some doors were open, some closed, all with nobody in them.

I pulled out my BOB (Bug Out Bag) put my two large knives on my belt, and my favourite pocket knife in my pocket! Drove into Oshawa, more empty cars everywhere but I can still get through, looks like what ever happened most where at home or it was very early in the morning, say 3-4 ish as the streets are empty.

Time to start looking in houses now! Dangerous, but it needs to be done and that is one of the reasons that I put on my fighting knives. Since this is Canada, they are in the vehicle and shorter than 8″ in blade length except for my Kukri Machete, which is now sitting loose in the sheath beside between the passenger seat and middle console.

knock, knock” I say out loud and do at the same time; “is there anybody here?”
No answer, no people, no cats that I can see but they hide mostly anyways, and so far, luckily for me, no Dogs.
Picked 15 houses at random and no people, no dead people and luckily no Zombie types either. I did not have the knives out, just ready in case of sudden surprise attacks. To any future readers, remember this is Canada and permit to carry firearms is very hard to come by with way too much paperwork.

WTF.. Weirdness.. Strangeness all rolled up into one!

Phone, call 911, no answer, call 0 no answer, call 411 automated, so ask for police station, no answer! Damn what is going on.

Thinking on it, I had not seen any cop cars on the roads, where were they all? So I went to the Hospital, better there than go to the Police station and get shot, I thought!
Well the parking lots were full, the Emergency areas, were full of Cop Cars, Ambulances and private Ambulances as well as cars. Some still had flashing lights, some the batteries were probably dead and One Prius Car was still running, I guess they do get good fuel mileage. The smart car on the other hand was not running! Humph

This time, I let Zeldy come in with me, in case of any surprises she would be able to help me out and hopefully be able to sniff out others as well.


WDJ Index


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WDJ Waking Divergent Journal Index

(WDJ) Waking Divergent Journal Index Page;
in order

3 journal books stacked one on top of the other

Journals stacked and ready to be packed

Waking Divergent Journal Day 1

Day 2 Waking Divergent Journal

Day 3 Waking Divergent Journal

Day 4 Waking Divergent

added Waking Day 4.5 Writing Exercise

Day 5 Waking Divergent

Day 6 Waking Divergent

Day 8 Waking Divergent

Day 9 part A Waking Divergent

Day 9 part B Waking Divergent

Day 9 part C Waking Divergent

Ch 10 Zoo Run Day Waking Divergent Journal

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 11 Road to Africa

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 12 Fires and Gorillas

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 13 Family and New Friends

Waking Divergent Journal Ch 14 Apes & Dogs

More to come soon …. 


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