Monthly Archives: Jan 2013


what is SHFT =
* anything that affects our lives in a profound and often negative way! I will not tell you what to do or why to do it, so instead here is a quick list of some of the things that I have had to prep for in the last 2.5 yrs alone!

For me in the last two and a half years alone;

lied to at property I rented, got sick from water very sick. Lost time working, ate some preps, used up supplies, lost memory
-bought new water filter that filters out bacteria
downturn in economy, fewer customers so made do and bought more long-term foods
shut down company, looked for work, got work
– got badly sick, lost 4 months no income no help, ate most preps, used up lots of supplies
– still sick looking for work, contemplating working for self again in time being
Van Stolen last night
– had extra money in pocket, took cab home
– ate food from cupboards (LOL.. not hard, but, see above)

There are other things, very bad luck I have, the point is thus;
without stockpiles of food, propane, TP and a few other things, I would have been SOOL/ SOL  so having supplies on hand help out.
Some people can not even go 2 days without buying food, what happens in a big storm, roads are closed for 2-3 days? What happens if you’re in your car and they close the road like they did in 2011 on the 402 for 3-4 days, with people in their cars! So have food in your vehicle, something to make fire, something to melt snow and or purify water, something to cook or heat food in and make hot beverages. Have emergency candles in vehicle or another heat source, that way if you go off the road or get stuck, you’re not in danger.
Helps to have backups as well for example; two different types of propane heaters, one big and one smaller, along with an adaptor cord and a few bottles of propane.

Help yourself first, so why prep because THEY will not always come along in the next HOUR or so to save you, help you out.


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Tiny House Sites

Hi there,
I live in a Tiny Home, I am happy with my dog living in 7×9′ though will be happier when I change the inside and use the full 14′ so 7×14. This spring I will be building my own Yurt, there are a lot of guides online, google yurt plans, or ask and I will send you some by email.

Here are some Tiny House Sites and some that offer plans both paid and free.

So there are a lot of link to help you out, good luck and have fun.
ps. the last link uses trailers, building the house on top of the trailer. My tiny HOME!, yes it is a home to myself and my Rescue Dog, is smaller, so what it is comfortable and is all anyone really needs. My living room is the entire barnyard, although at the moment due to climate change and the weather it is very muddy! This spring I will be building a Yurt as it is easier to heat and maintain. Then this Box Truck Tiny home, will be used more for travelling as well as my workshop. People need a workshop to feel happy. In the old times, women called them their sewing room or crafts room, men called them the workshop or shop or hobby room. It does not matter what you call your creative space it only matters that you let yourself create for then we become truly happy.


my Ford Home

Mine little hobby shop will be mobile and that is actually not unique and dates back to the 20’s. Mobile shops and homes where much more common back then, back before consumerism invaded our lives so!

Zeldy feels better, grabbing little sticks, Cane Corso

Zelda feels better, grabbing little sticks

Be honest with yourself, think back to simpler times with Great Aunts and Uncles with Grandparents, our favourite memories is normally sitting around chatting at the kitchen table or working on a craft or hobby together. Not sitting in one of our way to big rooms in our way to bit houses which has a huge carbon footprint.

Both of us are much happier and enjoy life more playing stick. Fetch the stick, tug on the stick, throw the stick. So what is your stick in life? What makes you happy outside, what truly makes you happy inside? My best memories of my ex Wife was sitting playing a game at her parents, either with the Dominoes or some other game, in the kitchen, chatting and having a good time.

My little home is quite cozy, so after two years, I will be building a slightly larger one, and using this one for travel for work as well as a workshop. The 7.3 ltr diesel gets good mileage so by using this and living in this, my carbon footprint is very small.

Dare to think outside of the box! 


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No Climate Change, Right!

So you Still believe there is not climate change, right! If you think there is no climate change keep watching the Lame Stream Media and the Simpsons or any of the other soaps, daytime or night-time. Good luck with that!

Prepping is about being prepared for events, so luckily in my Van there is still my raincoat and winter


Look at the bottom pic, Winter Snow in the Middle east, of course there is no climate change! Wonder if it is snowing in Hell this year as well?

Boots with rubber soles, as well as some special socks for inside boots that are like divers boots to keep the cold wet water out.

Here is the view from my Van right now, sitting here in the rain, updating the blog!



IMG_0624b IMG_0625bps.. here is my next post, it is a hint, sitting on my dash in the rain, in Canada in Winter in January, so ya right No climate change, so hows that working out for you??



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Durham GTA Edible Food Walk Talk Feb 16th

see newer updated post for newer updated information

Karen the Edibles experts info to follow!

* Cost – $20 – this includes a hard copy of Fields of Nutrition, a free PDF copy of Free Food from Foraging, and a (homemade) sample of vinegar because I like to show everyone just how easy it is to make things at home.
* Anyone who comes on this walk and wants to return for a spring/summer walk will pay $15 and at that time will get a free copy of an ebook I am working on now about the pine tree (won’t be ready for about 2 weeks).
* If there is a third walk later in the year, for those who come on the first 2 tours, cost will be $15 and there will be free samples.
* February 9th.
* Location Secord Forest and Wildlife Area:

Secord Drive…. east side of Concession 3 just south of Goodwood Road.


* Time… 1pm start until 3 or so… perhaps 4 if there are lots of questions and the weather cooperates.

– In the event of inclement weather the date will be February 23rd. Wild_E and I will determine no later than 11am on February 16 if we need to postpone to the 16th. So please check the forum! before you leave!!!!

I ask for payment in advance. Interac e-bank transfer or PayPal (they offer many forms of payment options). NO REFUNDS. In the event someone does not show up they have automatically reserved themself a spot for the second walk.

If you choose to pay by Interac e-bank transfer then please send payment to my email: k.stephenson(at) . For the secret question please use… “What is Charlie?” with the answer being “ground ivy” (all lower case). If you use PayPal my account there is karenanne24(at)

Thank-you so much and I look forward to meeting everyone!
(scouting two different locations this coming weekend, for Durham Region locations, nice walking areas with loads of Wild Edibles showing in winter time)
(will be creating a Hamilton Edibles Tour with JAB at the helm, soon, stay posted)
Facebook page
look for this in winter!

Plantain seeds in winter

If we have more than 20, the following weekend will be a second wild edibles tour and walk. If we have more than 20 and some can not go on the Saturday, perhaps we can arrange the second tour on the Sunday?
Let me know who is in…

Location will be North of Whitby near one of the ski hill areas, close to the spring water location, will update after this weekend, see note above as to why, location is tentative. Best for all …
cheers and look forward to seeing confirmation on this 😀

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Day 6 Waking Divergent

Day 6 Waking Divergent
Where to I start, the time is 8 pm. Well I guess a very quick synopsis would be best as the day was just a blur of activity with me sitting here falling asleep struggling to put this to add this to the Journal.
Woke up at 6 am, overslept as I wanted to get up at 5, but I guess I needed the extra hour of sleep.
Last night I dreamed up a solution, in my sleep I was travelling around getting caught on the Tactical vest all day, then drove past a dealer who sells ATV’s.
I remember from the dream getting a Quad side by side 4×4 ATV and a trailer and putting them behind the Dodge Viking. Well I woke up thinking about this and made sure to remember some of the details to help me out. The Viking was a vast improvement over the smaller Van, but I need to up the pace quite a bit! Just popping on and off an ATV is much faster and all the gear is readily available to grab as needed. 
A quick bite to eat for both of us, she does not always eat in the morning, especially when I give her extra food at night after a long working day. Well she must have still been hungry, I gave her a cup of food as per normal then filled up the water bowl, soon I was giving her another cup of food and more water. She gobbled that down as well, but I will just give her some good nutritious treats the rest of the day, until supper. Don’t want her as fat and out of shape as I am.
Man O Man, today I am stiff, feeling every bit my age of 48 and every extra pound on me. No more junk food and no more fast food either. Well now, that’s not that hard, I laughed and laughed, hmm got to watch that, figure out how to talk out loud to myself so I do not sound crazy to myself or the dog. Also and this is very important, do not want to be constantly talking to the dog, as eventually I will go crazy and start answering back to myself in Dog voice or for the dog like that wacko I had the misfortune of meeting this summer. That is a whole other journal entry that be.. hhmm umm ya… ummm.. Said like the crazy speech pattern of the wacko I had met… hhmm umm ya umm ,, enough to drive you crazy right there, just listening to him. Back away quickly from the wackjob wacko.. hehe LOL.. umm ok, on with it now.
So back to the day; After approximately 4 hrs of hoping in and out of the Viking, I made our way over to the ATV dealership north of the city, letting animals out and opening up barns along the way. Need to add in here, that I have also opened up the areas with the grain and hay so they can get at it without my help, as I will not be going back. Hopefully the animals will also re-learn to forage for themselves before winter sets in. Since it is the fall, there is more water available though I tried to fill all the troughs and let the water flow lightly to keep them flowing and hopefully to keep them flowing even after the freezing sets in. So much to do and think about and all by myself and on my own. I do not want to dwell on that too much though. A lot of the farms must have artesian wells, some of the power is already out on the farms, yet the water flows, nice. Need to remember to make some artesian wells on the property where I will settle down to live and grow food.
At the second ATV dealer and at around 11 am, I found what I was looking and hoping to find, a Quad side by side 4×4 ATV with a winch package, luggage racks and other high-end toys to boot.There were a few trailers there as well to haul the quads. After looking at the different options I picked the one that was the lowest to the ground and looked the easiest to load and unload the ATV in the quickest amount of time. Although not driving too fast at all, there is a lot of ground to cover from one farm section area to another sometimes. The ATV worked out much better than even the Viking over the Van, the trailer was a godsend as well. Quick up and down on the ramps, the trailer looks more like a car hauler or race car hauler, with low loading deck area. I found some rifle and shotgun cases mounted them on the ATV, grabbed some archery cases for the future mods, and another few odds and ends to make my job easier a simple open shotgun case mounted behind the ATV for the bolt cutters, seemed the fastest and easiest solution at the time and it worked out great. The only other thing I took the time to do was rig up a quick disconnect ratchet rig setup with a D link and a come along, This way I could secure the ATV to the deck and quick release it when needed, no need to do all that ratcheting, I was not racing around or even driving too fast for that matter. After a few hours I just drove it up onto the trailer and did not bother to tie it down at all, since there is no fast driving doing what needs to be done.
Riding around on the ATV, I was losing my breath too easy again due to the wind. So I stopped at another ATV and Bike dealership and grabbed a couple of Helmets, an open-faced, and one with a partial face covering like the cross country bike racers use, and a couple full faced helmets for the future during the winter time or for full on rain, might as well do it all now and toss them in the box. There was an awesome large plastic tote that was designed to go on a trailer or the back of a pick up. Grabbing this Tote, and did a quick mounting job so it would not fall off the deck and put a smaller tote on the back of the Quad ATV for misc. parts that I might need. Moving very quickly setting things up, in and out of the Dealership in about 30 minutes.
Zeldy is getting used to hopping up and sitting in the passenger seat like a good girl, thought I might need to install a seatbelt to keep her in check but so far so good, she learns quickly and is so willing to please that she does not hop up and in or out, until I ask her too. If only my Ex wives were that eager to learn!
Well more farms, more barns and more dead animals. I drove down to the Oshawa Zoo, stopped for a quick bite after letting the animals out and have come to a decision. I wish I had One Wish, please God, the Creator, Zowy, Allah, Jehovah The Universe, what ever God is called in what every religion or area or group, please grant me the One wish, One prayer to open every gate, door, lock on every house, farm or zoo on the planet and let the animals out, please! 
All these animals starving to death is hard to take. Is this day 6 or 7 of my Divergent Waking, how many days was I totally out of it will probably never know now. How many days have these poor animals, reptiles and others not had food and water? I am sick to death of all the sickness and death. I have only been at this two days, freed thousands of animals, birds and lizards, seen hundreds more dead! I will do this for as long as I can still save some animals at least but I know there is an expiry date to this endeavour, a very sad expiry date one quickly approaching.
On a selfish note, I will be looking for a place to stay tomorrow night with a Jacuzzi Hot Tub, need a long hot soak to sort out these old bones.


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Diet got if figured out right?

So, today I was thinking about the Juice Diet, then read the comments by Anita, Hmmmm

Thoughts led me this way and that way then to the store for prices, more hmmm then hmmmpf..

Juicer, Vegan? Paleo? Raw, Lacto Vegan? What’s the best way of eating?

The cost the waste of the pulp and peals, then searching for a Juicer Machine!
Came across some info then searched for more info on types of juicers, vs Magic Bullet vs Hamilton Beach, vs Ninja Food Prep, looked into for new and or used machines!

How about adding in there SHFT diets from Canadian Pepper’s forum, damn damn damn… How about adding in Natural Wild Edibles (ok, that was easiest thought actually) need to learn which do which and similar and complimentary tastes, then no worries, beyond identification, location, picking and harvesting. so

Bam..  … So friggin confuzled!

So, mostly Smoothies I have decided, it is so similar to the Juice Diet with all the benefits of the pulps and seeds, that will be mostly my way I think. Both WalMart and Canadian Tire are selling the Ninja Food Preps for $40 this week. The reviews and comments as well as Consumer reports rates the Ninja way above the Bullet for this type of thing. The Hamilton Beach Single serve although cheap at $15 just can not stand up to the torture juicing and smoothies put it through. It has its place with less hard items and the price is great, but for the little bit more, I think it is the Ninja for me.

Now the Ninja comes in two varieties for the ones I am looking at them online;

Ninja Frozen Treat and Drink Maker ->

Ninja Master Prep Food Processor – v



the Frozen Ninja = 400 watts

The Prep Ninja
= 450 watts and more bases

hhmm what to do, really I do not need a food processor  though I think it looks a bit sturdier than the Frozen Treat version.  Will go and check it out in person then make up my mind. PS.. almost all of the Bullets where priced as high as buying new, though there were a few cheaper ones. Juicers same thing though better savings there, but do I really want to waste all that yummy goodness? NO..

So, smoothies and thicker juices for me, it is all per the person and per the body really.

The cost of the food, so I will have to do what I hate and go shopping, more than one store! Yukkers.. Almost perfect has some good deals on larger frozen fruits and veggies, good deal there, Price Chopper is cheaper than Food Basics so shop there, they are all cheaper than Sobies! WalMart will need to look at prices there as well, make a list, check it twice gonna find out who is Naughty and who is Cheaper, O so NICE!

Reference Material;
WalMart Online
Canadian Tire Online
Wiki online
Purley Living –
Living Healthy –
Lacto vegetarianism –
– (cause me likes fish and eggs, honey and turkey, so sue me, plus the smoked turkey, or hamburger, sigh…)
or. Ovo-lacto vegetarianism it is all so confusing..

plus a host of other sites today including recipes, Yummy Mommy (love that title), Paleo Diet plus about 40 reviews of the different systems, juicers, blenders, bullets, and on and on and on… my head is mush, kinda like my diet will be by the end of the week, he he..



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Day 5 Waking Divergent

Day 5 Divergent

No phone calls back

No emails back, except for the auto responders and one late auto server message stating that the email could not be delivered.

No Ham Radio and no Police or Ambulance Channel communications of any kind.

‘CB, damn never thought of that one I had totally forgotten the CB, most people might think of it as it was so popular due to truckers using it and being used in movies for most of the 80s and 90s. Well Zeldy lets dig out my CB from the storage area and mount it up here on the Dash of the camper so I can try this one out now. There is not a lot of room left though, maybe I should stack the Ham and CB together and mount the handheld units from the Police and Ambulance services on the side, move the solar panel chargers for the batteries for the Camper and Deep Cycle battery to the front of the dash. I wish my head was not still so foggy, all this thinking is giving me a headache again. ‘

Waking Divergent, seems appropriate as I have diverged from normal, any normal anything, any person normal. Seems appropriate to me actually.

It was so late last night and I was tired and groggy, sleepy and a little numb, when I heard the cows I just did not put 2 and 2 together. Today I woke at 5:30 am angry with myself! Quickly I hoped out of the camper and went over to the barnyard area, Yup, no people, no water and no food. Those poor cows, they were never scared of me, but they keep their distance from people normally except when they want a scratch on the forehead. O they will follow you around like a dog watching what you do and of course wondering what people do in general. This morning they heard me and came right over, noses sniffing and pushing at my arms and hands for attention. Had to push them back just to get the water turned on and flowing, then while they were slacking their thirst, forked some hay down to them. Judging by how much they are eating in this 5 min period, I will have to feed them again in a couple of hours. Since they may not have had any food for 4 or 5 days now, I am a little worried about them bloating up. If they do that the kindest thing I can do for them now is shoot them though, there is no way I can manage to help a 800 to 1000 lb Red Angus Cow by myself, or Aberdeen Angus as it is called in most parts of the world

Plans let’s make some plans for the rest of the day;
go check for people and free animals so they do not stave to death! Damn what a waste all these animals trapped in pens, barns and fields by humans. Now there is just ME so far. Zeldy will be able to help get them out of the barn or pasture for me, sort of reverse to what is normal with the Dog helping to get them into the pasture or barn. Yes, they will be more susceptible to predators like the Coyotes and Lynxes around, but otherwise they stand no chance at all !

List to look for;
Chickens and other bird coops
Barns, fields, paddocks, stock yards
dog kennels, animal shelters

List to bring with me;
Ham radio handheld with scanner
Police radio handheld on scanner mode
Ambulance radio on scanner mode
put normal FM and AM on scanner mode, someone might be broadcasting that way
Water for the Dog and myself, maybe someone else if we find them so 2 Gallons should be good for the day
Grab some quick to eat food, eat it right out of the can, so can opener, plastic fork and spoons
Dog food for two days, in case I keep one of the dogs, or am gone longer than a day,
– note: get some more food for me too.

Bolt cutters, large
box cutter
small tool kit
sledge hammer
roofing hammer
belt knives
45 cal pistol
44 mag revolver
tactical vest
combat belt with the knives and holsters
shotgun slung on my back with tactical harness (my favourite shotgun of all time, Winchester Model 1200 defender with interchangeable barrels, short, long and long rifled, such a great tool)
.308 rifle with scope in seat besides me,

Why the weapons, well animals can get very ticked off when they are fenced in like that, starved and they take it out on the closest person even at the best of times. I think the bold cutters will be the tool used the most though and am hoping to not have to kill anything or anyone today. (Much watch out for Zombies.. LOL,, just kidding, I hope!!!)

Let’s go Zeldy, we have some saving to do, let’s go save some Cows, Horses, Chickens and pigs ok. Zeldy she looks at me funny like, she recognises the words cows and chickens and starts to head to the barnyard. Good start I say, lets give them some more feed. Open up the paddocks and let them wander around now, ok? Now she bounds over to the fence and grins at me, she likes the cows next door, although she does not normally chase or hurt the chickens, she likes to play Dog and bird, if they run, she gives a short chase, if they just wander around her, she does the same.

Damn she is a fine dog and too think she was rejected so many times by people, that the shelter was ready to put her down. She is just a big teenager puppy dog, a big fur kid who was let down by so many people that she was having some personality issues. I know a lot of Humans who acted a whole lot worse when rejected by even a few people let alone 5 families, plus the two foster families and the shelter family. All in all it only took me two weeks to train most of the bad stuff out, then another month or two to make her trust me and to accept her new little pack. Me, her and the workers who worked for Mick that came to the work yard on my side of the farm. Her little pack actually, she thinks they are all her pack mates if they come here more than a few times, it is funny to watch, or was funny to watch anyways, hmmmmm.

11 am, First off, I have just been driving around in my old Dodge Caravan, but with what I have to do and the Tactical Vest, weapons, bolt cutters, shotgun, and all the rest, I think that an upgrade is in order. Well I did not come to this decision lightly I do not like thieves and looters, but so far there is nobody else. I need to get out and about here as fast and as quick as I can and since I have just spent the last 2 hours, climbing in and out of this small van, with the small doorway getting hung up and wasting time, wasting time I do not have to free these animals there is nothing else that can be done about it.

Ok girl, this is taking to long I say to Zeldy, let’s go and get us another vehicle that’s easier to manoeuvre has 4×4, easy to get in and out and will be versatile as well. Into Town we go.

Since the area is switching from farmland to sub-division land, there are not a lot of working farms in the area. Although I have been zooming up and down the roads as best I can in the Dodge Caravan and most have been back roads, wiggling around the few vehicles left on the roads, it has not been to too bad, but sometimes it would have been easier with a 4×4 for sure. The top of Oshawa has a few Car Dealers, lets head there I say to the wind. Getting in and out of this door, so close to the ground with all the gear on is not so much fun either.

So, even though it is GM town I want a Dodge Diesel truck girl, I like my Caravan and have liked Dodge in the past as well, lets just see what is in this dealership, ok. Well this dealership is a Dodge pickup truck dealer, yahoo, everything I want for a vehicle, here is a brand new 2012 Dodge extended cab, diesel 4×4 with extra wheel and body clearance, front end package that includes a winch, trailer towing package with a hidden hitch and nice dark, black rim and trim detailing. Perfect I say out loud, I will take this one. Hmmm never a salesperson around when your actually ready to make a sale, too bad for you, no commission for you! Now lets find the keys I chuckle and whistle inside the show room.

Finally 20 minutes of looking around and the keys are on the keyboard in the sales managers office behind the parts desk, well that would have saved some time if I had gone there first. Lucky for me, I had grabbed the tag off of the Truck and matched up the keys fairly quickly. Boom, brummppppffff, the diesel starts up just fine, I climb in and out a few times much relieved to not catch on anything. Even holding the shotgun and bolt cutters at the same time I do not get hung up on anything, love this side step up side guard as well, dark finish, round bar and the underneath has the ground clearance shielding package as well. Just in case I need to do some puddle jumps and not get hung up on rocks and stumps. Sweet, let’s get going girl.

Zeldy looks a little confused and well I do not want to keep letting her up and in all the time, so I grab a 4×8 sheet of plywood to throw down on the deck of the box so she can stand without slipping on the coating in the back. I do not like dogs normally hanging out in the back of a truck as they might jump out or fall out by accident, but today is let animals out day, and I am wasting too much time.

She does her part in helping me unload the Dodge Caravan of the tools and equipment and transferring them over, she is standing there wagging her tail and holding her pink Teddy Bear. O so tough I laugh out as I look at her, I toss most of the tools, water, weapons, food and stuff into the back seat area for now, put the rifle, shotgun and bolt cutters on the seat besides me. Man this is so much larger than the Dodge Caravan, I am goanna have to think up a name for the truck. Zeldy up into the box now ok and bring baby with you. She looks and then just jumps up, wow, I would still be climbing up there, O to be so young again!

Since most of the city does not have any farms that I can think off, North is my answer, let’s go to the west of Simcoe street, I will go up and down the back roads, from farm to farm up to Port Perry today, maybe I can get over to Hwy 57 by the end of the day.

Yaw right lets get all the over to Hwy 57, it is now 3 pm, I am exhausted, Zeldy is exhausted the Viking is exhausted, well probably not but she is a very dirty girl. That is my new name for my new Power Wagon Dodge 4×4, it seems to fit as she is dark and sleep with dark detailing that I love and none of that wet chrome stuff that is so popular. We have been going up the back roads, up fields, around vehicles, up yards, across yards, moving out herds of cows, moving pigs out of pens, mostly on foot but sometimes in the Dodge Viking as well. This 4×4 is paying for itself very quickly… he he.. hmmm.

Today was full of; Snapping bolts, snapping locks, opening up and propping open doors, gates in fences, propping open barns, being chased by ticked off cows and bulls but honestly some of the cows are much more aggressive than the bulls are. I guess the bulls have been taught to fear humans if they attack them but the females have not had that happen to them probably. Two female cows were swatted with a piece of a 2×4 to get them to stay away from me and Zeldy, they were just too aggressive. One of the milking cows I think had gone rangy from the milk swelling her teats and attacked us, luckily I had strapped the shotgun on my back again this time as it was a very large Dairy Farm operation, quite the sprawl with animals in different areas.

This time there was no time to do anything else, she just charged bellowing from about 20 ft away mad with Milk Fever, I barely had time to whip the model 1200 Defender Winchester shotgun around and fire the slug into her head, but due to my training, I had fired and reloaded as fast as I could and did a version of a shotgun double tap, bang, slide, re-chamber and bang fire again. The second shotgun round was the 00 buck and it hit her in the head as well as she had not gone down yet and was 6 ft from me on first blast and 3 ft on the second round. Way too close, way to close.

I think she was dead from the first round and it was just momentum that was still propelling her towards me, but honestly a 800 to 1000 lb or so Cow, that is charging at you, just shoot again and think about it once, versus shoot once and never think anything again! So lessons learned, I need more practice, it has been way too long since I have done any combat shooting training with the handguns or shotguns, but luckily for me, the primitive mind once trained takes over in a crisis mode and the shot and re-load, re-shoot is instinctive due to all my previous training. She the Rangy Cow traveled that distance bellowing, charging, I was lucky. Luckily she had been acting strange and Zeldy and I had been keeping a close eye on her, Zeldy was about 40 ft away and started to bark and run at the cow, when I turned and drew the shotgun.

Zeldy is a brave teenager, since she is only 2 yrs and a bit old, she is in her teenager stage, not even an adult yet, but her guarding and personal protection skills seem to be coming to the forefront. Zeldy did take a while to calm down, stop barking and looking from the dead cow to the shotgun and at me. I calmed myself by going to the Viking and getting some dog treats out for her, she earned that and much more today. I think she knew how close a call it had just been for her and I and she is now only about 5 ft away at any time, getting lots of pets and loving for sure for the rest of the day.

Time 7 pm, If I was tired after having to shoot that cow, I am way too tired now, in and out of the Viking, up and down, doors, food, bolt cutters, tactical vest, so much weight to carry and move around, so much to do, so much in and out and all just days after coming too from this weird sickness which was preceded by 7 weeks of a lung infection. Man I am so exhausted. Shot my first Bull today as well, just about an hour ago. Zeldy gave me warning and the bull was farther away when it decided to charge, even though I had let it out, gave them all water and food, that I was a threat, it charged. Charged from 70 ft away, Zeldy was mad with warning, running towards the bull, bouncing up and down fur out, growling and barking at it.

The bull changed from attacking straight at me towards her, she gave me more time being a big brave girl. I shot him with the .44 magnum in the head, slightly behind the ridge plate, beside the eye socket, with the first bullet, the second hit it in the heart or lungs there abouts, he was starting to go down, but I did not take any chances, double tap like I have been trained, fire and quickly fire again, take up quick aim, as fast as possible for the third shot if needed and look around, for other threats. None, no threats all the other bulls, cows and babies were beating a hasty retreat as far away from the Human with the smoking thunder stick and the angry Dog. I hate feed lots, slaughter lots, so inhuman, so full of animals and no room, fattening them up before the slaughter. The slaughter house just up past Port Perry, the second slaughter house had been the last target for the day, that I had remembered. I thought I can save so many animals there, it would be a good last stop for the day, then rest and kip out for the night.

Well it had worked out almost perfectly, no Humans, no dogs, lots of Cattle, some horses, lots of chickens, some pigs, exhausted, and now a dead bull. I can not leave the bull here though. It will draw too many predators too fast and with the cattle too weak to defend themselves it will be a slaughter. So I hooked up a rope around the bull’s head, over the stumps of the horns, I guess he was soon to be processed by the plant, then pulled him out of the yard, down the drive and over the crest into a valley with no farms in sight, un hooked him and left him there. Why not process him myself, well there is no time really, and by leaving him there for the predators it will buy some more time for the Cattle and Horses to recover from their ordeal in the feedlots so they might just have a chance. I have food for now, so does the dog and eating freshly killed cow, is not that tasty it needs time to hang and age before you eat the meat or it is too tough. Dragging the dog away from the fresh kill was not so easy though, a 110 lb female Cane Corso Cross Breed with a Great Dane is strong as well, luckily she is obedient though.

Just for your info if you’re wondering I used the Ruger 44 mag New Model Super Blackhawk with Ammo .44 Remington Magnum American Eagle Jacketed Soft Point 240 Grain 1270 fps out of a 50 Round Box.
Time 9 pm Salad, beans and fish, light fair tonight I do not feel like have meat after today. Not sure how long the power will be on so eating things from the fresh veggie and fish sections before they go bad from the grocery stores just seems right. I just go in and grab something, most have at least one door open, as there were night crew working, some do not, so those I take the power drill, and open up the lock to the employees entrance. Sure I could drive a vehicle through the glass doors, but that would be a waste now wouldn’t it.

Lets see, no phone messages, no emails, nothing on the Ham/Police/Ambulance radios, listen to the Oldies station for a bit to wind down, thankfully it is still playing, I must thank whoever set it to play their entire selection on the hard drive. I miss my bed in the back of my Van though, I will go back and grab it as it was comfortable, actually since the van started good, I will be moving it back to the farm somehow in a few days, I can use it for a much better and quieter generator. All the generators are fine, but loud and they do not get good fuel efficiency. My plan is to use the van for a gen-set, to help me do this I am going to write it out now so I do not forget later. The bed was for when I went up North to work, so not having to stay in a Hotel/Motel saved me money.

I will grab a pair of wheels or better yet a pair of rims from somewhere to put on the van. I will lift it up, block it up, change over the tires to empty rims and run some heavy v-pulley belts down to some pulleys or just a straight rod. This rod will be mounted with some bolt down bearings, so that it will remain rigid and at a set height, but allow the rod to spin freely. I will next run either v-pulleys or alternator belts to Chevy alternators, and charge up batteries. The alternators will be mounted with the mounting adjustable brackets to a 4×4 wood frame, so again, keep it easy, the KISS solution, keep it simple stupid. So cheap easy, quick way to charge up batteries and not have to worry about charge controllers or anything else. The Chevy have charge controllers built into them, the fords are mounted on the firewall and since I am not a mechanic, this is an easier solution. Damnation, OK brain, shut down your too tired and all you do is go from one problem to the next, let us get some sleep shall we.

O man I am so tired, this ends my journal for day 5 of Divergent Waking
Tomorrow I need an even quicker method of working by myself to get as many animals out and freed as possible, some were already dead in the pens and barns. Each time, I pulled them out with the winch, then dragged them away, not very nice to the dead animals but quick and efficient.
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Inspirational Documentary

I just watched a truly inspirational documentary entitled;
Fat Sick and Nearly Dead, found it

inspirational documentary

Juice machine and travel around helping people, then he met another with the same condition, that fellow learned and did the same diet reboot. Second fellow lost 200+ pounds by juicing and exercise, watch the transformation and inspirational documentary. It is not cheezy or in your face, laid back documentation of their journeys and the people they help along the way.
My great big smile for the day!

Here are the links to the websites;


An Australian fellow who was overweight and had a weird and rare condition thought long and hard about his life and health, the Documentary is his journey. This documentary takes place in Australia and the United States where he travels around chatting with people and trying to help them in their food addictions. Now this sounds in your face but this fellow is easy to like and easy to chat with as well as his genuine sincerity to help others. Half way through his journey across the U.S. he meets another fellow like he used to be, overweight and with the same rare illness.

Your going to smile, you’re going to be sad, you’re going to laugh as well as shed a tear or two, or your just not human at all. This documentary about this part of his life draws you in and you think your there with him it is very intimate and soulful.

Joe the originator of the film is inspirational and Phil the ex-truck driver is amazingly inspirational, your heart melts with his weight loss journey. Watch this little hour-long film and dare to change your life!

Since I have decided to become mostly Vegetarian  this was very opportune for my knowledge base of veggie foods. Now since I have been off sick for the last 4 months with this weird Lung Infection, I need to lose even more weight, I was doing great up to D-day sickness time. The film just makes sense  so much sense that I will be starting this diet as well, they call it a ReBoot. Well reboot me baby here I come. North American Doctors can not find out what is wrong with me, they can not fix me and they can not even help very much, so I am helping MYSELF!

More to follow on my Journey and I believe that updating my blog with my journey will help me more than it help anyone who reads it, but just maybe, someone else out there will find the info useful and the Documentary will change their life!


I dedicate this post to the Documentary and helping one person change their life, mine. Everyone else and everything else is a bonus and good luck on your journey as well!

My belief before was that Permaculture and Aquaculture could change the course of the world for the better, this documentary only re-enforces my thoughts and beliefs.

Cheers for now



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